Dream, Sir Or Clay?

Chapter 6 - As If It Was Nothing?

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I'm sorry for taking so long to make new chapters. Motivation is something that i hardly have for the tiniest things. I got diagnosed with depression not so long ago and now i'm taking meds for it. It's kinda helping but i still have to give it time before it actually does.

OKAY LET'S START THIS CHAPTER!!

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~clay's POV~

Over a week ago, George got into that stupid fight with Sophie. Sophie is still recovering in the hospital. She got severe brain damage which caused her to have memory loss and a bad eye vision. She has difficulty breathing and her skull is fractured.

The worst part about this is that George acts as if it was nothing. He ignores what happened and it angers me. You can't try to kill someone and then act as if nothing ever happened! I've tried to talk to him about it but he either wouldn't listen or just ignore me. I'm very disappointed in him. I haven't broke up with him yet, though.

I'm not saying that i'm planning onto doing it. But i've thought about it sometimes. Speaking of George, he's actually entering my office at this moment.

I looked up from my paper to look at him. "Hi George." I say.

"Hi love!" He answers, all happy. He walks to my side, bends down a lit and kisses my cheek. I don't react. Honestly, after what happened, i'm doubting my feelings for him. What happened is scary and doesn't make me feel safe anymore.

I few maids have came up to me to ask if they could change their schedule because of how scared they are of George. Some of them even quit their job, which made me lose 10 to 20 maids. All of that because of George.

I sigh, without realizing it. George pulls my chair backwards a little to come and sit on my lap. He pulls me into a kiss, that i give back after all.

"Are you okay, darling? You've been acting weird recently and i'm concerned." He says. How dare he ask that?

"I'm fine." I'm not fine.

"Just anxious about work." You make me anxious.

"Okay.. You can always talk to me about it, okay my love?"

I don't trust you anymore. I can't talk to you. What if you kill someone? What if you kill me? And then act as if it was NOTHING.

"Mhm." No.

"I love you" he says as he pulls me into a short kiss.

I can't say it. Don't say it back. It'll ruin you. Push him off. He's acting as if it was NOTHING.

"I love you too.." i say so quietly i almost couldn't hear myself. I'm so scared of him, i need to get him off of me.

~George's POV~

"I love you too.." he says, almost whispering. He's been so cold lately and i can't understand why. Have i done anything wrong? Even though it scares me, i act as if it was nothing.

I get up from his lap and kiss his forehead. He smiles, but that looked like a fake smile. He was hurt, i could see it in his eyes.

I feel like he was scared. But scared of what? He's not scared of me, right? He wouldn't. Why would he be scared of me? I didn't do anything wrong.

I turn around and walk out of his office. I quickly go to his room and lock myself in it.

Is he scared of me? What did i do? Why would he be scared of me? Does he want to leave me? Is he going to leave me? Is he gonna quick me out? Am i gonna get fired!?

I can't act as if THAT was nothing! We really need to talk, but how can i ask him to talk to me? He isn't acting normally, but what can i do about it?

I grab my phone, seeing that it's my lunch break. But i don't care. I need to talk to Clay. I leave his bedroom and i go back to his office. I gently knock, alerting him that i'm opening the door, and then i step in.

He doesn't look up at me like he usually does. He just stares at his screen on his computer.

"Uhm, love?" I say as i walk up to his desk.

"Mhm?"

"..can we talk?"

I can hear his breathing stop. He looks up at me. I know he's trying to seem confused, but it doesn't work.

"About what?" He says slowly, hesitating. What is he hesitating about?

"Uhm, well.." i then take a seat on the chair infront of him/his desk.

"I know i'm not supposed to worry or anything, but there's clearly something bothering you.." i quietly tell him. He sighs.

"D-did i do anything wrong?.. i'm really sorry if i did, i'll fix it!"

He stays silent, as if he was trying to find his words.

"Look, George.. I find it cute that you get jealous and all that stuff, but what you did to Sophie the other night was wrong." He sighs.

Oh.

"I love you, so much. I promise i do. But, i'm scared of loving you, now. I'm scared you're gonna hurt someone else or.. hurt me."

So he is scared of me.

"Clay, i would never hurt you.."

"Who knows? You're saying that now, but what if i do something wrong and you get angry and so you try to kill me! Think about it, George. I'm scared to introduce you to one of my friends, now! What if you get jealous and hurt them?!"

That hurts. Really bad. I can feel myself tear up. I look down at my lap, i can't look at him in the eyes, else i'm gonna cry. I can't even open my mouth, i know that if i speak, all the tears are gonna flood out of my eyes.

"George, look at me." I can't.

"I'm not angry at you, i'm just scared." I don't believe you.

"..I love you, but you can't act as if it was nothing." You don't love me. You're scared of me.

I get up from my seat and quickly runs out of the room. I can't stay near him, he's scared that i'm gonna hurt him.

It hurts so bad. He thinks i'll hurt him, but god, for nothing in the world i'd ever do that.

I love him.

He loves me.

But i hate myself.

~End of the chapter~

Sorry for the wait! I didn't really have any motivation to continue it..

But then i saw all of your comments, and oh. My. God.

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1154 words. (Short ass chapter)