Defending the Inevitable [On-Going]

Chapter Eleven- ÉQUESTRE

In most situations for me, being rejected is one advantage. They do say that being rejected brings one person disappointment and somehow the feeling of being sad. But when it comes to me, it's an escape to less complicate the situation.

"Fine."

She could've said no. But why? Maybe she's just being helpful and professional at the same time. I can't help but think. More encounters, more complications, a disadvantage for me. But what can I do? What can I do to further escape this situation? Will it come to the point that I will run far away and never come back.

"We're settled then! Thanks for helping, Izar, Ate! Sa subject mo naman iyon eh. Hihi. Izar! Just talk to ate ha?" Parang ito. Paano ko matatakasan ang sitwasyong ito. The people I care about are involved. I can't just ghost them all.

Why am I thinking like this? I know for sure that I am not a stable person. Hindi ko alam kung anong pwede pang mangyari sa susunod. Pero I need to accept and face the fact that there's really some situations that is hard to escape from. I'll just consider this as a training ground for a more complicated one.

Kumbaga, kailangan ko matuto pakisamahan at harapin si Ma'am para sa ikabubuti ng ekonomiya ng mundo. Hmp. "I'll talk to you soon po Ma'am regarding the project. Let's go guys?" I politely replied to my professor then ask my friends to finally leave and end this embarrassment.

Professor Verajuela just nodded her head in response. Hindi ko alam kung ang 'fine' na iyon ay senyales lang na ayaw nya ng ituloy ang usapan. Walang ibang reaksyon ang makikita sa mukha nya. Hindi ko alam kung gusto ba nya o hindi  ang sinabi sa kaniya. As in. This is scary as shit. Pumayag nalang din ako para matapos na at makaalis na kami.

"Frielle? Where are you headed?" The professor asked her younger sister as we walked pass her. "Uncle Fran's rancho, Izar wants to have some fun, she looks stressed lately kasi e." Oh wow. Kailan pa dumaldal tong babaeng to? Napapahiya ako e.

I took a glimpse at my professor and I saw her smirked. For what? Jeez. Is she thinking that I'm stressed out because of her? Well partly but not entirely.

"Hey" I tried distracting her para hindi na siya magpatuloy pang magdahilan sa ate nya, gumana naman siguro. Ngayon ay siya naman ang nagtanong sa ate nya,

"You,ate? Where are you going?"

"Persephone's" tipid nyang tugon.

But... it's to early tho? Iinom siya ng ganito ka-aga? "Alba just arrived. I'm going to meet her" Oh. She's going to meet someone. And who's Alba? It's not like I care tho. I'm just curious.

"Really? Alright, just send my regards to her." So they both knew this Alba girl. Maybe her colleague or what. Anyways..

Iniwan ko na sila at nag-patuloy sa pag-lalakad papunta sa motor ko. Convoy na lang siguro kami nila Aspen, sanay naman ako sa long rides kung malayo ang pupuntahan namin. Pero hindi pa man ako nakakalayo ay tinawag na ako ni Amani ng pagkalakas lakas,

"IZAAR! SABAY KA NALANG DAW SA KOTSE! WAG KANA MAG-MOTOR"

The heck! Akala mo ay kami lang ang tao dito, napatingin tuloy yung mga taong naglalakad malapit sa amin. Pinag-sigawan na nga niya ang pangalan ko. My gosh, kailan ba ako kakainin ng lupa para makatakas sa mga kahihiyan ko buong araw!

Napapikit na lang ako bago humarap sa kanila. Nakita ko naman na napataas ng kilay si Professor Verajuela. Wow, the second reaction I received from her. Yes, I am counting. I'm weighing kung gaano nya ba ako kinamumuhian. Psh.

Ang ibang nasa paligid naman ay nagpipigil ng tawa. Bumalik nalang ako sa pwesto nila kahit parang gusto ko nalang umuwi. Binulungan naman ni Aspen si Amani na kumalma. Apaka hyper e! Di ata naka-inom ng gamot.