My beautiful stalker

Chapter 1

Meredith Grey

Derek Shepherd, if you were to ask me what weird obsession I have that's what I would tell you those to two simple words take over my life. The thing is I barely speak to the man but I am obsessed. I think it is just physical and sexual attraction because he is so good looking and I touch myself imagining that it's him touching me.

Ever since I moved next door I haven't had sex. I haven't gotten a boyfriend but I have had multiple one night stands trying to imagine them as Derek but I know damn well he would be better and damn it's making me sexually frustrated. I feel that by sleeping with all these other men it's like betraying him but it sure as hell isn't I barely even know the guy! I feel like i'm some middle schooler with a giant crush.

I just wonder what it would be like for him to give me all his attention for one night, how good it would feel to be touched and tormented by him. I know it would be good, he brings home women occasionally and sometimes he leaves the shades open so I can see it and god I always wish that was me instead of one of those women. I see how good he is those ladies scrape their nails along his back and arch their backs so high it's unreal. I wish he would notice me and think of me in that way but instead I'm left masturbating to the scenes next door.

I sigh and take a sip of my wine while I sit on my couch, about an hour until the new year, what a great way to spend it alone while thinking about how good your neighbor probably is in bed.

I'm a pathetic lame ass loser, that's what I am.

I turn my head over towards Derek's house, got I'm such a creep but I can't stop myself. I walk over to my window seat and sit there comfortably with my wine. I see his front door open and he is with a guy that I don't know but I do recognize he is with him a lot. I open my window maybe I will be able to get in on their conversation.

"Want a cigarette?" Derek asks and the guy takes one and Derek lights them for himself and his friend.

"Ma just wants to know why you haven't brought home a girl in forever, you're usually the optimistic family guy" he says.

"I just haven't found anyone yet so I am just fine with some flings here and there, and you don't have to report that back to mom" Derek points at him.

"What about your neighbor ever had a fling with her?" his friend asks or brother I'm not sure now.

"Meredith? no though she might be into it I seem to notice all the men she brings home" he says and sounds a bit tense.

All of a sudden their voices get quite. I sigh and close my widow taking me and my wine back to the couch.

I sigh a few more minutes until new years and I again just have myself and this glass of wine while Cristina and Alex are out partying or whatever but I chose to stay home. I get up and walk over to my book shelf I grab a book and throw it on my couch. I smile and strip down to just my bra and panties. If I'm going to be home all by myself to read and drink wine might as well do it in my underwear as long as Derek gets in a few glances.

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