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I woke up in a strange place, a place I have never known. All I remember is fireworks in the sky as I fell. Why am I here? Is this a dream? I am surrounded by an endless beach with the night sky shining above me. It is rather beautiful, the waves that crash against my legs and the sand washing over my feet. The water is so clear and blue, perfect for swimming. I could stay here forever.

My clothing feels light as if it isn't even there, and my scars seem to have faded away. It's strange, for once in my life I feel... happy? No... at peace, almost content.

This is a lovely dream. I feel so far from my home, the home where I can never feel safe. My father can not find me here. He can't hurt me here..... I hope. Ever since I started my transition he has tormented me relentlessly. I could not get away from his words, the words that shattered my heart, the words that broke the bond I used to have with my father, the words that drove me to hate myself. 

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