"Nothing ever last forever" Drew angst tmf

"The fight..." Drew's pov

T.W THERE ARE KNIFES , SH (self harm) AND SLIGHT MENTIONS OF ABUSE ,STARVATION AND INSECURITY IN THIS CHAPTER IF YOU DO NOT FEEL COMFORTABLE WITH THAT THEN PLEASE SKIP THIS CHAPTER oh there's also cussing but I don't think you guys care about that

'Example word '  means flashback btw

And when It's someone's pov , bold means a word that sticks out to them

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"Hey dude!" It was Jake

After all this time of him being with his freak friends ,he came to me

But this time it was only me, kind weird that he went up to me without the Jomies being here.. but I'll shrug it off.. Jake is finally here

 I don't know what possessed me to do this but I hugged Jake, usually I bottle up my emotions so I wasn't expecting it either

 "EW! get off me," i hear as someone pushed me on the floor

"I can't believe you actually thought we were friends!" Jake shouted

He chuckled while saying that..

"I came here to say that I'm hanging out with the music club and cutting ties with you since their so much better than you ! Hah.. I can't believe you fell for it . I was just using you just to not get bullied! "

I felt like there was a hole in my chest.. it was a massive one too

I usually never feel like this .. especially when I'm around Jake

"I'm going to see hailey now, and if you didn't know we're dating!"

"W-what.."

Out of all people .. her?! What does she have that I don't...

"Did I stutter ? She's way better than you. She has talent-"

Something I didn't have

"A good personality-"

Another thing I didn't have..

"And actually has friends !"

As he said that Henry and Liam walk from behind him and henry started speaking 

"As much I hate it hes right drew.. your none of those things-"

And

You

Will

Be

*ring ring ring* 

I shot my eyes wide open , I try to adjust to the light as I sit up in my bed

"Ugh a Monday and a nightmare ? Couldn't be worse" I sigh to myself 

I got up and brushed my teeth then changed my clothes

I was wearing my everyday hoodie but it was the bigger size since my dad gave me yesterday and my usual gray pants

I grabbed my pale green hairbrush that Jake gave me for my birthday and I brushed my hair while looking at the mirror

The more I looked the more I seemed.. off

Either it was my eye bags , my weird colored hair that people used to bully me for , or just everything 

My face didn't look right

I didn't look right

It took me a second to realized I have been spacing out and I snapped put of it