Take A Leap Of Faith

"Routine As Old As Time"

It sucks to hope that your own self would listen as you beg. And ends up having only one hour and forty minutes liberty of so called sleep or is it nap? As the phone blares it's wake up call every five minutes, I tried to count the seconds, "10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,60", just please another minute more, give me peace. Then I entangled myself with the hard bed, folds the orange blanket, arranged the three pillows and spray, yeah spray the area wishing a genie may appear.

It only took me thirty minutes to prepare myself for the day off to work, no coffee taken of course, need to wait at ten later for that. Travel almost an hour to reach my teaching station. Yes, I am teaching primary education for seven years and counting. I love to teach, it's not the children that make it hard, it's the paper works and we all know that right? But then, this is the path I took so I have to live with it. I just don't know until when I could keep going this routine as old as time. It's madenning and well boring except the bonds you shared with your colleagues, pupils and parents.

As one of my pupil came near me saying "morning ma'am, I'll take your things", I gladly give it while fiddling with the key and open our classroom. "Okay, children be sure to clean your shoes first before entering, then open the windows and do your tasks immediately", my daily instruction and reminder that my day starts and soon will end just like any other day have been for the past years.

Start the class, check assignments, do spelling, storytelling, singing, games, worksheets, artworks and the best part break time. Coffee always at ten each day, next at noon, another at three in the afternoon and last but not the least at six or seven in the evening as dinner takes place. When I reached grandma's house where I grew up and still living, I plucked myself in the gaming chair and start reading.

It's how I start the end of my day, everyday, well if no reports or chitchats with colleagues on sched.

"See? Always like this, until when.."
my mantra every time I cannot escape the rumblings of my emotions that I hardly pushed away through reading. I just don't want to keep asking myself have I made the right choice, for it will never change anything, I am here stucked in this loop hole called a chapter of my life.