Take A Leap Of Faith

"Flippin Pages"

"Why not you?", he said nonchalantly. I rolled my eyes, what an ass. I guess no answer befitting the reasons why he chose me, besides he narrated a while ago how I'll do, just make overs, sessions of trainings he says. Do he have other choices? I'd rather not know.
" One, two, three, four, five... pages.." yes, I loudly count it. Flipping the pages again,checking if I incorrectly counted it. But yes its indeed five pages.
The wind blows having some unruly hairs whirl my vision. I take a deep breath and start reading.

In the midst of the time passed, its not an awkward silence that engulfed us, rather a calming silence that gives me a sense of hope and safety, I realized. Maybe I'm making the right choice this time. He looked at me twice, relief is what I felt. That means this is really happening right? or maybe he is thinking how to back out of this? That he just mistook me as someone else.

Almost an hour passed, yes almost an hour, you know, its not easy reading each documents, dos and donts of us, family background and clauses thrice, so I collected myself and cleared my throat before saying, "Done". We will be a great pair I can see that. We don't throw words unneeded and silence between us worked. Here's to trouble then.

I retracked the parts where I will ask for clarification and negotiation. "Party A will provide Party B everything she needs. You mean with everything anything I'll need? Anything I asked to have? House, food, clothes, etc. " I said gulping as I stare back at his grey eyes. He has such captivating eyes. Hows that possible just staring at such eyes I feel hot all over. Blink blink, blink blink." Yes everything, anything I'll give it to you, just ask. " he calmy answers with a stoic expression. That makes my eyes glint mischievously, I should make a list soonest, on top travel around the world. Oh Paris!. This is it, dreams could come true.

"Party A will give Party B a sum of  $10,000 monthly gift to be saved in her personal account within the one year of marriage and another $10,000 monthly to be used for shopping and clubbing." I read gulping again. That's a lot of money, he's going to give me anything already. I cannot accept that much, I'm not a gold digger. Time for negotiation, so I said," Thank you but it's too much love, delete the latter. I don't need that much especially I don't do clubbing , as you said you'll give me everything I need, so shopping  is on your wallet card then and drinks too." He looks at me intensely after that. I shivered, have I insulted him by saying that?

He didn't respond so I proceed," and the monthly gift in the personal account, I will gladly accept it. Could I use it for paying debts? " Why is he staring at me like that? So I wave a hand at him, near his face or should I pinch his nose instead? That's tempting. "How much?" he said. "What do you mean how much?" I raised an eyebrow. "The debts you have love. I'll pay it all." I am dreaming yeah, right? He didn't said that, but he did. He repeated those words and face me again. "Ahmm.. Ahmm.. I am not sure. More than a million but less than two million I guess for all banks. From the seven years and five future years of debts". No shame saying that, it's what we get for ourselves when we worked our asses  day and night just to feed mouths. I don't regret what I gave up either but I did stutter, breaking and giving havoc inside me. Hope he can't read me.

"Next  question?" he said soflty, good his capable of that. Okay, fiddling the pages again, my eyes bulge bigger as I reread the clause I'll negotiate next. Silently contemplating how should I say it that I may not sound too affected.