Nodding off on my bathroom floor watching the brown substance shoot out of the syringe into my veins gave me peace looking at me one wouldn't think I was a heroine addict but that's because I have hidden it pretty well I kept my self maintenance and hygiene up to par I looked the part of the beautiful girlfriend of the biggest street king
To everyone else caution was the best thing next to god all these bitches wanted to fuck him and would gladly take any chance to replace me as his leading lady and all these niggas out here was jealous or they looked up to him as some kind of hood legend but to me he is just a abusive asshole with money and no sole no substance no loyalty
When he wasn't out there running the streets he was at home beating me until I was black and blue just at 23 years old I was a batterd and bruised junky I wasn't always like this before it was caution it was just me and my books and dreams I was going far places I always longed for a big family so I subjected myself to lower my standards but my would i take that back any day over this what happened to you De'zyaire where did you go I know your still in there well let me introduce my self
(2 years ago ) It was the begging of my junior year of nursing school I was on cloud Nine I was at the top of my class and just had four more semesters then I would be nurse De'zyaire or Nurse Arellano which ever one I was ecstatic about it that's right
my name is De'zayaire lacaria Arellano I am a nursing/ buisness dual major at the university of Chicago . I was studying both
majors because I wanted to start up my own home healthcare agency one day and other business ventures I was fresh 21 with out a care in there world as I strolled out of my last class for the day I looked at the calla lilies planted outside the lecture hall and looked up to the sky and thought about grandma calliope she was the only parent I ever known.
Grandma calliope was my mothers mother she worked hard everyday to keep clothes on my back a roof over my head and food on the table I never went without she always made a way even tho she was a house keeper they were a generous family that paid her well even had her setup with benefits whenever she saw fit to retire when she fell I'll the wife of the family stepped in and took care of all her expenses so I wouldn't have to touch her savings to keep up on any bills the Garcias was there for me every step of the way even after she passed
They basically helped put me through college even tho I had scholarships money they covers what the scholarships didn't my grandmother had her will set up to that I inherited her money when from her savings and insurance policy when I finished college when she fell I'll I promised her I would start college in the fall I would make her proud and Go after what I love which is helping people ohh how I miss our talks I looked at the calla lilies I remember I needed to go get some to put on her headstone those were her favorite flowers
Before walking away a feeling of peace but it was like it was fading away came I shook the feeling off and started my way to my car because I had a busy schedule I've been up since 5 am and it is now 3pm and I still have to get home to touch up on my studies for clinical a tomorrow but first things I have to go to my job to get my book outta my locker
Yes that's right yes I am well taken care of thanks to my granny Callie and garcias but that didn't stop me from making my own bread I was a certified nurse assistant on the weekends at the Ann & Robert H. Lurie Children's Hospital of Chicago I loved kids and babies that was my passion along with working with the elderly
I've always volunteered to help the elderly in anyway even as a kid . I had senior pen pals and we were the bet of friends I also used to baby sit a lot in my teen years I worked in daycare and even tutored disadvantaged kids helped and there all I ever wanted to do is help people that's in need the sick the challenged the immobile or inaudible.
