The Second Chance

Integration

Dear diary: Today 07/01, I want to tell you something interesting diary, as far as I remember, I already told you about take care some people. Today I want to tell you how I got a little closer with some members of the server that actually I consider really important in my life, I call it "Integration". Why? well... We would say these were the first steps for creating the family that actually I love so much and I feel so comfortable to be with them. It would be something like integrating to a group or something else.

At that moment I wanted that diary, you know? I had really bad luck with the "special" groups of friends or "family", but for the first time in my life, I felt I could do something different at that time. If you see, in the past I wanted to integrate a "special" group of friends because I thought I was a big friend of an old friend that I had, but the reality was of the other, totally different.

Actually I'm really happy I wasn't a part of that, I felt and I'm feeling I'm creating my own way with people who really care about me. That group that I told you about Diary, they didn't even recognize me, they just knew I was a friend of one of them and that's it. You really don't know how it feels to realize you did a lot for them and they really don't care.

Actually I cant't believe how foreigners take care of me more than people that I've met here, this surprised me, I really enjoyed all the time we spent we the guys in the server, at some point we added ourselves at our social media like close friends for talking a little bit more than only playing games or talking in voice, you have no idea how warm that feels.

For that reason, today diary I really want to thank all the members of Amaya Gang for being there and sharing wonderful moments that I will never forget. I would like to mention them with a big emotion.

With Helga we used to share moments playing Dota, we used to talk a lot about the game,  inclusive I did a present for her once in the game. Also we used to talk thrash in the server andI learned a lot about icelandic culture, I can't be more grateful with her, she was one of the administrator of the server but almost majority of the cases she defended the majority member of the Amaya Gang, so lovely.

When I was boring in some moments, Louis used to ask me for listening music or play any game, I swear diary, I'am usually solitary, the life made me like that or the events that happened to me or some people made me like that? Doesn't matter, but I've never felt happiness when he asked me for listening music or play any game. Of course sometimes I could not because I was busy, but most of the moments I enjoyed a lot, inclusive some members of Amaya gang joined to the voice call to participate and talk with us, it was really cool, unforgettable moments.

Talk about Urdu makes me so happy, she is a nice person, I don't know how to describe, you really don't know how funny and amazing is when a foreigner speak your language, imagine the happiness there was that I put to dance with latin music to Dahiane and Urdu. That was the beginning of a wonderful friendship, I learned a lot about swedish culture, inclusive until now I remember a patriotic song of her country. She gave me interesting debates about the life in general, is a really intelligent and gentle person. I just can say "Nashe".

My brothers Björn and Peter, we usually to share memes and make jokes about everything, it's really funny to spend time with them, they are surprising, you don't know what stupid thing or meme they gonna say or send any day, the most epic about all of this is that, Björn and me speak the same language, that is a plus because things are more funny.

Mandy and Sam, what I can tell, they always were there loving each other, it was a little disturbing but that had its essence. I want to emphasize Mandy more than anything, to be honest I don't know Sam but I know everything okay because all the Amaya Gang knows he has his own way to be cringe. But Mandy is so lovely, I remember how she was always there talking so cutely to everybody, she always wanted to spend time with all of us, all of the Amaya Gang is delighted with her.

I didn't talk too much with Michael and Amelia, but I remember them as well, this is not all about me, I mean about how I consider the others respect to me, this is about the Amaya Gang in general, the others, I learned being the central attention is not the point, everybody is so important to me just as much as the others, everybody has something special that identifies them. I know Michael is a big friend of Amaya and Amelia listens to K-pop a lot for example, they are really important as the others too. 

My point is everybody was available to join into the Amaya Gang, the only important thing was the person and how much they interacted with us, we talked about this in the past chapter Diary, you don't know people, they have to show you who they are. At least I feel no one is wrong in our group, it's like I can feel the aura of the others.

And finally, Amaya, Dahiane and Sylvannas, the representatives of Finland (well, Amelia is finnish too). Sincerely, I have no words for describe all the story we had, what I can say, they made me interest myself in all related to Finland, I started to like finland naturally and I'm thankful to them. Did you remember the first contact with Amaya diary in the second chapter? After that we talked very often and with Dahiane and not so often with Sylvannas, but she has really nice vibes and I know it. We spent a lot time speaking in our own language, learning languages, I learned a lot words in Suomi (language of Finland) and the truth is I like insults in suomi, I hope someday I will understand the complete language. Inclusive actually we continue talking about life, gaming, memes, etc. It's like we have a special connection, like whatever the things we do, there always is a magic moment with them, an unforgettable moment that I never had in the past and I'm so happy to have it and I swear I will never ruin this. 

You probably will be upset for losing time in present Amaya Gang members and not continuing with the important story, I want you to know Diary they are really important in this story, for that reason I'm describing all of them in the best way that I can. And also I want to show the importance of integration, because if you do that, you can learn a lot and you can receive and give to people, because we are that after all, social animals, is part of us, is our magician too.

I want to say sorry because all the time that I lost u-u.

I was moving and that was really hard, but now I'm more relax and my mind is open for inspiration.

See you at the next chapter ^w^!!!