My mothers words haunting me as I lay myself to rest... I tried to breathe I tried to live but all she did was kill me inside I couldn't reach the rope at first but when I reached it and started to climb it snapped and her words came to kill me again I can't escape I can't break free and she's not the only murderer that's after me... nobody saved me from his dirty perverted hands they just made excuses for the things he did... I started to welcome the physical abuse from my mother because it distracted me from my own mental anguish... no matter how much I run I will never escape my past... it follows me everywhere I go it's worse than a dark cloud it's a parasite that sneaks into my brain and takes over my thoughts...it makes me believe every horrible lie it says and it makes me want to end it any means necessary I want to end it's hold over me and my life but I don't think there is a way...
