𝐀 𝐓𝐨𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐎𝐟 𝐈𝐧𝐧𝐨𝐜𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 | 𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐠

❥ 𝑻𝑾𝑬𝑵𝑻𝒀 𝑭𝑶𝑼𝑹

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I really don't know what's going on, Mateo has been staring at me for the past hour, without any expressions, or maybe i'm just bad at reading faces, but it doesn't change that he's extremely weird. The fact that he's even in class is already surprising. Maybe he does care about his future.

We were in history and after twenty-five minutes of pain and suffering, i was finally finished with the work the teacher gave us. Classes were getting harder and harder each week and i felt like i was in a loop of studying and stressing over and over again. I feel like i am the only one who's struggling with history because i am the last one to finish the project.

While usually i am the first to finish, even I was shocked, maybe i just needed to focus on studying rather than stupid boys problems. We're not even in january yet. This year's going to be hard. Thankfully Winter break is next week. I just need to last 10 days and i will finally be home cozy in my bed with my cat cuddling next to me.

The piercing stare Mateo was giving me distracted me so much it completely distracted my thoughts from what i was thinking. He was a few desks away from me and he was starting to get really annoying. Was i dressed funny? Was my hair not brushed enough? I am already stressed enough about school and my brother, i certainly don't need his silly games right now.

After what felt like forever, the bell finally rang, and i rushed out of class as fast as i could. I hoped that i wouldn't be too weird but unfortunately luck wasn't on my side and the side eyes people where giving me told me otherwise.

I wanted to tell them to look away but instead i kept quiet and continued my weird running. I definitely looked like a maniac but honestly i didn't care. Students were being extra loud and my head was spinning. I didn't even knew why. I should talk to Jenna, she will know what to do. Walking toward her locked, i started relaxing a little bit, i was shaking. My social anxiety has gotten so bad since school started.

Taking a deep breath i went to the closest bathroom to try to think about what to do next, i wasn't going to do hide and seek everytime i saw him goddamit! I was eighteen years old and i couldn't even look at someone in the eye. I look up at myself in the hard water stained mirror. My cheeks were red, my hair was starting to look frizzy and i felt like my clothes were glued to my body. Thank God last period is done.

My brown eyes were gleaming, like i was about to cry. I was really embarassed, no wonder nobody talked to me in school. I subconsciencly grabbed the necklace that was hanging from my neck. It always calmed me in these situation. It used to be my sister's favorite necklace, now it's mine.

The lights were dimmed, making it hard to see. The water faucets were so dirty i automaticallly scrunched my face.

I brushed my hair with my long-nailed hands to try to reduce the knots in my hair quickly. I was about to go out of the bathroom when i felt my phone vibrate in my pocket. I took it out of my jeans and saw that Jenna was asking me to go with her somewhere in the school to see her crush or something.

I sighed and got out, not forgeting to roll my eyes on my way out.

Once i got close to my friend's locker i noticed that she was busy talking to someone. I decided to leave her alone and to go to my locker instead, i was so tired that i didn't even put my notebooks back in my locker. I just ran to the bathroom like a stupid puppy.

Once i had put them back, i looked at myself in the small mirror i had installed in my locker last year. What was nice about the school was that we all kept the same locker each year, we could even keep the same room if we wanted to.

The school wasn't that known of. It was pretty much quiet around here. I pretty much knew everyone in the academy which was really nice. The halls got quieter as everyone left the school to go in the city.

Looking at myself in the mirror i realized that i was indeed too pretty to be doing all this. Dark soft curls sprayed my back. I had big doe hazel eyes. I looked down at my hands and played with my rings, my nails were getting longer.

My skin which used to be filled with acne scars and oily pimples was now glowing and clear. That korean skincare i saw online really was magic. No wonder Mateo was looking at me. I can't blame him. Feeling ten times better, i closed my locker and walked out of school, taking only my bag with me

I went to my favorite coffee shop and took my usual coffee. Maybe i did needed peace with my mind to be able to study more, and to be at peace. After finding a good spot to sit on, i looked out of te window which was next to me. Some people were walking next to it and i couldn't helop but feeling envious.

They were happy, walking with theur friends or whatever. A girl my age was walking with a boy two heads taller than her, she was incredibly pretty. I started to feel insecure about my thighs and how different hers looked compared to mine. I poked m skin with my nails, swinging my feet because of the high raised chair. She was wearing a skirt, making me se her thin legs. They weren't that thin, but thin enough to make me insecure about mines.

My coffee which was almost half emptied, was starting to make me nauseous. She finally walked away and i was grateful to not see her anymore. I sighed and opened the video my math teacher sent us for the exam.

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yea ik it's terrible 😭🙏
please be nice yall i tried my best
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