The worst part of it is that she knows. She knows everything and yet.... She just doesn't care, I guess. I thought we were best friends, I thought she cared. But I know she knows. She knows it makes me mad. She knows it makes me upset. She knows why.
October 3rd
She lies to me about it.... Okay, so maybe if someone out there one day is actually reading this, even though no one is suppose to, I guess you'd be confused. But, so am I. I honestly don't know exactly what's going on right now, or what to tell you. My best friend, Hannah, is throwing me under the bus for some guy. But, I'm doing the same to her, sort of. The guy is the same guy. She likes him, and he kind of likes her, but they don't know they like each other. And I like him, kind of, my other friends say he likes me but...I don't think so.
That's not just the only thing. Hannah's also, changing. She's not as nice as she used to be. She only cares about looks and brands and how many friends you have. Really, if we weren't friends before two years ago, we wouldn't be friends today, even though we're not really friends today, but, you get I mean. We hang out with completely different people. I'm with the "wallflowers", but we just don't like to get involved in a lot of drama. That doesn't mean we don't, but we try to avoid it. Hannah, on the other hand, is drama filled. She knows the latest gossip, and starts pretty much all the rumors.
Enough about Hannah, here's the other half. Eli,(the 'guy' I mentioned earlier) is well, different. He hangs out with the real popular people, like the kind of people Hannah is. But he's not like them. We're somewhat friends, sometimes it seems like we're best friends, but were not. Sometimes it can get awkward.and my friends like Nicole won't leave him alone about stuff like who he likes. He gets annoyed I think, but he doesn't let it show, which is nice. We hang out together sometimes at school.mi have two classes with him, science and English. It's hard to talk to him, because of what I mentioned earlier, the whole he hangs out with Hannah and all them, but we do in between some classes and at the end of the day.
October 4th
Today was the worst day ever. It all started before second hour, when I was waiting on Eli like I always do. But, when he didn't come, I figured he was gone or late, so I went on. I heard Hannah's voice somewhere, so I looked for her to ask her if she knew if he was here or not. I hate asking her anything about it, because she knows I kind of like him,so she always teases me, and sometimes it gets annoying. I saw Hannah by a locker. I started to head over there, when I saw her with someone else. I couldn't see who it was, but when so someone moved, you could clearly tell it was him. I listened to their conversation, not to be nosey, but just to see what was going on. I'm glad I did. He asked her something, and she giggled in her little flirty voice. Then he asked her out. She said yes. They turned and walked away. I ran the other way, hot tears clouding in my eyes. I wanted to just keep running, but I had to get to class. I mean, where would I go. I knew I was overreacting but stil... Eli tried to talk to me, but I ignored him. He asked what was wrong, so I just told him I didn't want to talk to anyone. He said how we were friends and I could trust him, but what was I suppose to tell him? 'Oh nothing, just you know, my x-best friend is now dating the guy I've liked forever.' Yeah, not happening.
After second hour. Eli walked with me to the third hour, just like always. He told me he was dating Hannah. "I know." I said, hoping it wouldn't come up. "Oh.. How'd you already know? I just asked her out right before second hour?"
"Word travels." I lied. "Are you mad about that?" He asked. The question caught me by suprise. I was afraid maybe he found out that I liked him. "No, why would I?" I asked."we'll, you guys are friends and..." His voice trailed off. "No." I said, and left. But, of course, I just had to run into Hannah. She ran up to me. "Hey. Guess what?" He asked, with a sly smile. I knew exactly 'what' she was talking about. "I don't care, and I don't want to talk to you right now". I kept walking, trying to get away from her. "Oh, you will care. I'm dating Eli." She said. "I know" I said. As much as I'd didn't want her to know it bothered me, I couldn't help but run away. There was one problem with that though. I had next hour with her. Luckily so did my real best friend, Ana. Ana was, is, and probably will be, one of my beta friends ever. She's like a sister to me. I tell her everything. She'd never liked Hannah, and can't understand why I would be friends with her in the first place. I don't really know either. Ana had already heard that they were dating. She knew I'd be upset. Well, she was right, but I tried to act like I wasn't.
