HOLDING ON

CHAPTER 1

Sleeping in my bed. I was disturb by the sudden and large sound of the door by someone who forcefully barge into my room.

"Nathaniel Eidiazon!!!!"

The scream echoed the whole room.

I don't have the need to remove the comforter covering my face to see who it was. I knew it too well.

"What is fucking happening to you!!!"

I groan when he remove the comforter away from me. I force my self to sit and look at his grumpy ugly face.

"Wala ka na ba talagang magawang matino sa buhay!!?"

I just gave him a boring look.
"What?" I ask.

Same scene every morning. I'm tired of it.

"You really are out of your fucking mind!! Why did you fail you minor exam!!? For the fucking sake!! Minor pa yan nathaniel! Pero bagsak kana!? Ano nalang masasabi ng mga kumpare ko tungkol sa mabababang grado mo!? Hindi kana nag tino! Pano na kaya sa major exam mo!? Why don't you try to be like Adrien!? Huh!? Nag-aaral ng maayos. May achievement, mataas ang pangarap, may pakinabang sa negosyo ng kaniyang ama! Ikaw!? Anong plano mo sa buhay!? Ang magbarkada at mag inom!? Why don't you try to be useful huh!?—

—Why don't you just die and fucking leave me alone!?" I scream at his face.

His face turned red when i said that. But it didn't affect me even a little.

"Ha! Bastos ka talagang bata ka!! Hindi ko alam kung anong pinakain ko sayo at nagkakaganyan ka!!—

I jump out of the bed and walk towards the bathroom. Never minding the rant of the old man.

I heard a loud bang of the door. Cguro napagod na sa kadada at nag walk out.

I'm already dressed when i get out of the room and leave the house using my car.

As i get out of the car. All eyes landed on me. Accuracy and disgust is evedent in their eyes. Mapa lalaki man o babae.

Walking alone i heard so manny voices muttering behind my back.

"I can't believe that hadsome face will do such a crime like that. Imagine what he did to her mother is giving me goosebumps."

"Crush ko pa naman siya."

"Hindi ako naniniwalang kaya niyang gawin iyon."

"Wag kang lumapit sa kaniya."

"He's a criminal."

I heard them saying that. I'm not affected by it.

I just walk passed them until i reach our room.

Even the whole room went silent beause of my sudden presence.

I went to my seat and took out some of my materials like nothing.

Everyone seem to be very distant from me. They even jump when my eyes meet theirs.

The seats near to me is so vacant. Like nobody wanted to get near me. I look at them.

"Don't worry. I won't murder one of you."

I said making them gasps, some even jump to their seat. Can't help but to laugh. Giving the more goosebumps.

The lecturer arrived and tell the class to go to their assigned seat.

Still. No one dared to be near from me.

If i'm at home, the issue is about School and when i'm in School the issue is about my home.

Funny how people are acting nowadays.

Funny how people easily believe in a story no one even know if it's true.

They just judge.

Without confirming and knowing the truth.

That's what people do.

The whole class is very silent only disturbed when someont knock and open the door. The lecturer is saying something maybe to the one who just came.

I didn't take a glance for whoever it is.

I'm just taking notes when someone take the seat infront of me.

Someone is offering her or him to seat with them but the person dismissed it saying

'I'm more comfortable in this seat'

I just continue to what I'm doing. Listening to the lecturer and taking some notes.

Someone is secretly staring at the person infront of me. Maybe trying to warn her/him. But the person didn't even look or give a damn.

It was already 1 months since that incident happend and everyone doesn't seem to moved on.

When the first subject end the room remains silent like they're afraid to even make a sound.

"Hey. I'm Angelicia Guinee. The transferry. Can I borrow a ruller? Hindi ko kasi ma aline ng maayos eh."

I look at the person infront of me. She's facing my side. I just stared at her for a moment. Even the class is shock by her sudden question to me.

She looked at me directly in the eyes. Without fear and accusation. I can't help but to stare at her more. She even smiled at me like I'm just a normal student inside this class.

Without leaving her eyes. I handed her the ruler. She immediately took it.
After a minute she handed it over to me. Seconds by that the next lecturer came in.

"Thank you." She sweetly said. Before going back to her old position.

Minutes turned into hours until it reached dismissal. All of the class cleaned their things in a hurry. In a matter of second. All of them Vanished.

I was preparing to leave when someone reach for my arm.

"Uhm. Pwedeng sumabay? Wala pa kase akong kakilala dito eh. Anong pangalan mo pala?" She ask wearing her smile again.

I look at her coldly.

"Aren't you afraid of me?"

Her face look confused.

"Huh? Bakit naman?"

She didn't have an idea huh?

I turned my back on her and walk out of the room. Walking in the hallway everybody went into the corner making a way. Distancing their self to a criminal like me.

"Bakit parang takot sila sayo? Para silang nakakita ng multo kung tumingin sayo." A small voice coming behind my back.

I stopped walking to face her.

"Look at them." I said.

She roamed her eyes and say

"Why are they looking at you? Like you're a criminal who just came out from prison?" Still looking at the other students.

"Because I am." I coldly said.

"Nah. Hindi naman. Suguro criminal sa pagnakaw ng kanilang mga puso?" She said innocently.

That's just korny.

She really doesn't have an idea. I shook my head and started to walk again.

"Wait! Pangalan mo muna! Hui! Antay. Pangalan mo?" She even run to chase me.

All students are watching her like she's putting her life in danger. When she really is.

I turned to her again.

"Nathaniel Eidiazon. Newbie."