Worthy (Captain America/Steve Rogers Love Story)

Guilt

Charlies POV:

I stood there in shock next to Wanda as the building crumbled before me. I saved anyone I could...but it wasnt enough. It was never enough. If I hadnt tried to contain it, I wouldnt have gone into the buidling, and it wouldnt have crumbled. Lives wouldnt have been lost. Steve tried to pull me away but I stood in horror at my actions. I should have had more control.

"Charlie we need to go, let starks crew take over" Steve said pulling me away. I didnt budge, I stood there eyes still stuck on the scene before me.

"What have I done...." I quietly told myself, although Steve heard it

"Charlie, doll, look at me" Steve said stepping in front of me trying to block my view. I looked up into his eyes and lost myself. Tears began to fall down my face. Steve pulled me in and I melted in his arms allowing him to comfort me.

"We need to go" Steve said pulling me with him. I barley walked, I didnt even know where I was going. I couldnt believe myself and what I just did. I was silent the ride back. Steve was holding me but I felt numb.

Steves POV:

We had arrived at the Avengers facility and Charlie was in horrible condition mentally. The moment she hit that building I knew she would blame herself. But how could she? The impact she made was problem nothing compared to what the blast would have done. But I know she needed time to absorb what just happened.

"Ill be back" I told the rest of the team as I walked Charlie to our room here. Wanda was taken to her own room. Both their faces held the same guilt.

As we entered our room, I pulled her into my arms and she let everything go.

"WHat have I done Steve what have I done" Se cried out, crying like I have never seen before. It tore me to pieces to see her this way but I had to be strong for her.

"Charlie, you did the right thing..." I started but she jumped in

"SO many people died Steve and its all my fault, I just wanted to help" SHe said breaking into more sobs. I let her cry it out, knowing she needed this in order to calm down and absorb what I have to say. After about 10 minutes of her crying and me holding her, she finally relaxed.

"Charlie, if you didnt do what you did more people would have died. You took on so much of the blast that the damage you caused was minimal compared to what it would have been" I told her as I rubbed my hand up and down her back.

"How do you know? How do you know I didnt make i worse?" SHe said looking up at me with red puffy eyes.

"Charlie we were both in the military, what explosives did then is nothing compared to now. If Rumlow was going to make an exit like that, you can bet he was going to make it big. I understand why your upset, but you saved more lives today then you know" I told her. She seemed to be more calm at this point. I know she wouldnt be completely over it, but this was a starting point.

"Steve I love you" She told me looking into my eyes. I planted a kiss on her head.

"I love you too doll" I told her causing her to smile. I can tell she was still upset with herself but she is out of her hysterics state and thinking more clearly about the situation.

"Im going to go check on Wanda, I cant imagine how she feels" She said. I gave her a small laugh

"What?" SHe asked curiously

"Your always thinking of others, its one of the things I love about you" I told her. I saw a blush rise to her cheeks.

"Its in my nature" She said giving me a kiss and walking to Wandas room. Although things were a mess right now, I had my amazing wife by my side

Charlies POV:

I walked over to Wandas room distracted by my thoughts. Steve is always honest with me, I need to listen to what he said. I feel extreme guilt over me contributing to the building collapse, but if Steve was right I caused less damage then there would have been. As I approach her room I hear the TV on

"What legal authority does an enhanced individual like Wanda Maximoff and Commander Rogers have to operate in Nigeri -  " I couldnt listen to it anymore. I went into her room and turned the TV off before she could listen to anymore.

"Its my fault" Wanda told me giving me a heart broken look. I walked in and sat by her.

"We both did what we thought was best Wanda, and it probably was what was best" I said trying to keep Steves words in mind.

"Turn the TV back on. They're being very specific that it was our fault" Wanda stated fustrated

"No matter what we do even if its right, the media will always twist the situation. They dont know what goes on in that moment. I should have noticed the bomb vest sooner. I felt I made the situation worse by Shielding the blast. A smart man told me though that if we didnt contain it like we did, the blast would have been worse." I told her, she continued to look ahead taking in my words.

"No matter what we do Wanda, we always do our best to do the right and prevent the wrong. But we arent always given a choice" I spoke, my words making me feel slightly better

"This job . . . we try to save as many people as we can. Sometimes that doesn't mean everybody. Its something I have had to come to terms with when I woke up. We cant save everyone, but we sure as hell can save as many people as we can. What we did today... we saved as many people as we could. It sure as hell doesnt seem like it right now...I still feel horrible and guilty. But we werent given a choice. That bomb was going to go off. We did what we could do to save lives even if it means not all of them. Its still a lot better than loosing everyone" I told her. She grabbed my hand and gave it a squeeze letting me know she is going to follow what I told her.

Suddenly vision comes through the wall causing me to jump, Wanda seemed unphased.

"Vis! We talked about this." She shouted

"Yes, but the door was open so I assumed that . . " Vision started.

"Captain Rogers wanted me to inform Commander Rogers that Mr. Stark has arrived" Vision spoke. I gave vision a nod then looked at Wanda

"Dont beat yourself up Wanda, If you need to talk im here" I said getting up and giving her a hug.

"Oh, and apparently, he's brought a guest." Vision finished. I looked at him curiously

"We know who it is?" I asked

"The Secretary of State." He responded. I looked at Wanda, what is Tony up to this time?