Have you ever felt like there was something missing from you? I feel that all the time, and I’m tired of having that feeling. It’s honestly starting to be a burden to me. I bet it’s not much of a burden to you. I mean afterall you do have your mother by your side. I bet you have that mother daughter bond, a best friend relationship. A relationship I envy.
You know what’s also a burden? When daughter’s take their mum’s for granted. See when I was just an infant I lost my mum. No, she didn’t get in a hot air balloon and become lost. I lost my mum the worst way possible. In a fight, a battle with cancer. No not lung cancer or breast cancer, she was diagnosed with ovarian cancer.
You see I’m not suppose to be here, I guess you can say I’m a ‘miracle child’ but I don’t want to label myself as that. You see I don't’ believe I was a miracle child because I was the reason why she’s not here. She knew the risks about the pregnancy and her great chance getting cancer once she was in labor with me. 11 months after I was born she was gone.
As much as everyone tells me to not think the way I do, it’s my bloody fault she’s gone. I killed my mum by being conceived and born. Face it without me she’d still be here if not she would’ve lived a few more years longer. My burden is my mum’s passing, my burden is the guilt I live with as my conscious is telling me I’m the one to blame for the cause of her death.
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A Love Triangle (Harry and Zayn Fanfic)
Fanfiction17 year old Daliana has everything you can imagine, materialistically. She doesn't have a mum, her mum died when she was just 11 months old. Her mum was diagnosed with Ovarian Cancer, therefore leaving her to be the only child. Her father was left t...
