English- To all the boys I loved before- HSMTMTS Version

The letters are out

My name is Nini- Salazar Roberts. I'm used to being invisible to others. Nobody really cared for me.

„Nini...what are you dreaming about? About EJ?" my friend Kourtney wakes me up from my daydreams and wobbles her eyebrows while we're going through the hallway of the school to our lockers. I am rolling my eyes. „Stop it. You know exactly like me that this has to stop." „Just because he is the boyfriend from your best friend? Girl, you can't fight against your feelings. They do what they want, period", Kourtney explains and makes me smile thankfully. With that being said, we're standing in front of our lockers. I open mine, hang up my jacket and get my stuff for the first subject of today.

„Hey Nini....nice outfit", Lily steps to us. Once we were good friends until she was distancing herself from me and became annoying. „Thanks", I answer with a fake smile. „Only your shoes are ugly. Are these from the flea market?", she grins in a mean way until her boyfriend Ricky arrives and puts his arm around her. „Let her wear what she want", he says and gives her a kiss on the cheek. „I would like it better if you agree with me", she expresses and pulls her boyfriend with her. „Don't let her make you feel bad. You're shoes are amazing", Gina comes from behind- holding hands with EJs. „Thanks", I smile to my best friend. „Lily doesn't know style", EJ confirms which makes me grin. „Thanks, you guys", I'm thankful but I can't stop looking at EJ until I realize that Gina is right next to us so I quickly look to Kourtney.

After school she comes over to my house. First we're learning together until she disappears in her favourite room of a house- my closet. There she's interested in my clothes. „If you would let me do it, I would give you a hot makeover", she shouts from my closet. „No thanks!", I shout back. I am really happy with myself and I don't need a new style. „What a nice looking hat. Oh shoot!" With a big grin I roll my eyes. „What did you throw on the ground?", I want to know. „What is this?", Kourtney suddenly squeaks and runs to me. She has a blue box in her hands. But it's not any box, it's the one where I keep my loveletters. Shocked, I try to take it away from her but I'm not lucky. „Letters where all over the floor after the box fall down. I picked them up and they are adressed to boys only", Kourtney says enthusiastically. After some back and forth I tell Kourtney everything about the letters. „If I am really in love with a boy, I write a letter for him. I also put an adress on it but it's nothing serious. I am too scared to sent them anyway. I wrote four letters: To Jack from summercamp, Carlos Rodriguez, Ricky Bowen and EJ Caswell."

"Carlos Rodrigues? That guy is gay", Kourtney is wondering. "True, but I didn't know that in secondaryschool. After my heart was broken cause Ricky had only eyes for Lily, he really helped me. At the schooldance, Carlos danced with me cause no other boy asked me. In that moment I fall in love with him until he told me a year later that he feels something for boys and asked me if that was normal", I admit. "Ouch. That must have been like a slap in the face", Kourtney empathizes with me. "I knew from your extreme crush on Ricky and the one you have now on EJ...but Carlos? And who is Jack?" I smirk while thinking about the summer before my first year at highschool. "Jack from summercamp. In camp he was the heartthrob and of course I liked him too", I explain. "And you had to kiss Ricky in a game of Truth or Dare while first year in secondaryschool. I didn't know that your lovelife was that exiting", Kourtney grins and nudges me playfully when it suddenly seems like she has an idea. "How about we send the letters now? Maybe one of the boys is still interested- we don't have to send Carlos his letter but we could try with all the other letters", she asks me. "First of, we're not in a datingshow and second of all, that would be embarrassing. Put the box back to where it belongs!"

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I didn't notice that Kourtney took the letters and sent them behind my back. The cherry on top is that a nosy old lady asked Kourtney about Carlos's letter so she had to sent it too and the chaos was complete.

Two days later, Carlos is waiting for me in front of the school. "I don't know if this is supposed to be a prank. If yes, it's not funny. If no...I am gay. But thanks for thinking that I'm cute." I look really confused at the Latino in front of me. "What?" He holds MY letter towards me. "Where did you get it from?", I ask in shock. "I've got it per mail", he explains to me. Immediately it becomes clear to me that Kourtney sent the letters and did not put them back like she promised to me. "These letters never should have been sent", I panic. Oh no, if Carlos has his letter....that means that Ricky and EJ also got their letters. Jacks letter won't arrive cause I put the address of the summercamp on it. Oh God, maybe it's for the best if I move out of town. Carlos recognizes my glance of panic and starts to calm me down. "Who else got a letter?" "Ricky Bowen and EJ Caswell", I squeak and I feel like I am about to collapse. "Ricky Bowen...hot guy. I get you. And EJ Caswell? Doesn't he do it with your best friend?" With an annoying look, I look at Carlos. "Can't you express it in different words?" "No", he answers boldly which makes me laugh.

Carlos accompanies me into school for support. The first person I'm going to talk to is Kourtney. I find her at her locker. "Did you sent my letters?", I hiss to her angrily so nobody else understands our conversation. "Yes, I thought it would help you to find a boyfriend if you're honest with your feelings." "Jacks letter won't arrive, my feelings for Ricky are in the past, EJ is dating my best friend and Carlos is gay. Nobody of these boys wants me and now they got an embarrassing letter from someone deeply in love.", I am angry. "Hey, I would date you if I'm not gay", Carlos trys to calm me down. "That's no help. The question is, should I move to a different place or should I kill myself now?", I'm helpless. "Maybe the guys just think that the letters are funny and throw them away", Kourtney considers. Great, but I want my letters back.

The rest of the day I am trying to avoid  EJ and Ricky. At lunchbreak I walk outside and sit down on an empty bench under a couple of trees. In the meanwhile I am considering how to explain both guys that I'm not interested anymore and that I want my letter back. "Nini, can we talk?" I scream because the voice scared me and then I turn around to the person, who spoke to me. Ricky Bowen

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"To all the boys I've loved before" in English- it's the first time for me writing a english story. I hope my english is understandable xD Hope you like it