Wicked Love (COMPLETED)

Wicked Love 20

5 years later...

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"Nabalitaan mo na ba?" Tanong ni Ramses.

"What is it?" I asked, without looking at him.

Kararating ko lang galing Russia at balak kong manirahan dito sa Pilipinas dahil mas nanaisin kong bumalik rito kaysa manatili pa roon kung saan wala akong pamilya.

"She top the bar exam too," imporma niya sa akin na parang hindi ko kilala ang tinutukoy niya.

My brows shot up. "Then, that's good to hear. That's what she want to top on the bar exam. Malas niya lang ako pa rin ang nasa una," walang gatol kong sagot sa kaniya. "She did her best to surpass me, huh..." I whistled.

Ilang taon na rin pala ang nakalipas simula noong huli at masakit naming pag-uusap. After we decided to end in between us, I didn't hear any words nor news about her.

Ngayon ko lang ulit nabalitaan ang tungkol sa kaniya nang dahil sa kadaldalan ni Ramses. Akala mo walang girlfriend kung makadikit sa akin ang gago.

Naging masaya naman ako sa bawat taon na wala siya sa tabi ko. Naging masaya ba talaga? Tanong sa aking sarili.

I'm not happy most of the time I think about her. About how she cried in front of me while saying those painful words and I hate the fuck that she cried because of me. I'm such a jerk back then.

I thought I was matured enough but through the years I realized I wasn't. But now, I can see how matured I am.

I lived alone in Russia. Kinukumusta lang ako ng mga kaibigan ko minsan ay binibisita rin ako ni Ramses kung may free time siya o tuwing bakasyon.

Minsan rin pumasok sa isip ko na bumalik na lang para magmakaawa at lumuhod kay shorty... yeah, shorty pa rin ang tawag ko sa kaniya.

Damn, I missed my shorty... so much. I miss her face... her soft and kissable lips. I miss her every single day.

Hindi ko magawang bumalik ng Pilipinas dahil binawalan ako ng father ko. He even cut off my allowance and my inheritance too but that didn't make me give up to my studies.

I applied as a bartender in a famous bistro and guess what, I was hired and I already earn money in my own.

My thought were interrupted when Ramses tapped my back.

"Is she running on your mind, dude?" he asked, chuckling.

I bit my lower lip. "She didn't stop running through my mind, Ram. Hanggang ngayon hulog na hulog pa rin ako sa kaniya at hindi na ako makaahon pa." Sagot ko na lang.

As Ramses said to me before I finally leave the Philippines, if she would tell me to give up... I'll fight for her. If she pushes me away, I'll stay but I failed. I failed to stay because I know it will be more painful for the both of us.

One thing I realized while I was away, I should've hold her tighter even she pushes me away and hate me. I should hold her but it's a big help to walk away because I know we are both matured now.

"She's a lawyer now at the prestigious law firm in the Philippines. Don't you want to visit her?" Ram questioned.

I smiled, sadly. "I badly want to visit her... but the question is, does she already know that I'm already here in the country?" I blurted. "Ayaw ko siyang biglain kasi baka may galit pa siya sa akin." Dugtong ko pa.

Ram smiled and tapped my shoulders again. "I'm sure, gusto ka na rin niyang makita. Ang tagal na panahon na rin naman ang lumipas mula noong maghiwalay kayo— I mean you didn't give your relationship a label right? But both of you are smitten with each other."