Her Very Existence (1D)

Chapter Four: Shadows

I sat on my bed, well, a bed... in Eleanor's apartment. 

I stared around the place, just feeling out of place. I mean, and I allowed to touch anything? Am I allowed to move anything?

This suck's...

I sighed and fell back and stared up at the ceiling, I wonder if I can call any of the boy's?

...

Probably not. They wouldn't want to mix in with, me. I'm so weird now, i'm a different person.

They probably think I lied to them or something. I sighed and sat up, before slowly walking out of my room, "YOU'RE UP!" I heard Eleanor squeal- holy shi- "WOAH!" I yelled as she tackles me.

"Come on, I saw how little clothes you had, and now i'm going to take you shopping!" I tried not to groan and complain, or at the thought of going fucking shopping. The torture.

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"How about this?" I shook my head, refusing to even wear the dress. She look's at it, "Yeah, it doesn't suit you, does it?" what's that suppose to mean?

"I'm going to go..." I say, she look's at me, "What?" "I'm... just... going...over there" I gave up talking to her and I walked out of the store. I looked around, why was this shopping centre, just so girlie? I stopped and stared at a store...

I walked in, "Hey" "Sup?" I looked at the girl and she eyed me up and down, "New around here?" "Yep"

"Do you want to know the best spot's?" "Yes please" I walked over to her and she look's around, before pulling out a piece of paper, "Here's all of the hang out point's, skater's, soccer games, hipster's, druggies and just chill point's" she say's and had's it over to me.

"Here's our website, and your  user name and pass word" "Thank's" I nodded to her, "So, what's the football player from my cousin's town doing here, in London?" I looked at her funny, "Oh, that's where i've seen you" she nod's, "Well... catching up with some family, I suppose"

"Right, look around if you want, oh, and we have some new board's if your interested" and then she walked away.. London, the only place where I can walk in somewhere and be handed a manual for my life.

I looked at it, football stuff, "A game next Thursday? Turn up with four pounds... hmm" 

 Look's like I have a date, with justice... i'm joking, I have a date with some boy's, mud and a round ball. This will be fun.

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I stood in El's apartment, she was putting make up and different clothes on me, something that I hate. Make being the top, squealing girls being the second, the third... changing my clothes every two minutes.

Her mobile beeps and she pull's it out and look's at it, then to me, "Do you mind if I go out with Louis?" I shrugged, "Thank you!" she hugs me and run's away, to get ready I suppose.

I stand there, before walking into the kitchen, I grabbed a tea towel and drenched it in water and I started to scrub my face. 

"I'm going now!" I held a thumbs up to her and she leave's, I stand there before, sighing in releif. I leaned on the counter, I don't get it... why couldn't I just stay with my family?

I pulled my iPod out and put my ear bud's in, before I started to make a cup of tea, "What if I was just a painter painting houses on the rich blue coast? Will you ever try to leave me for somebody who deserves you most? 'Cause darling i'm just a painter. I'm painting for the rich old folks. I'm gonna make a million dollars, 'cause nobody's gonna steal you, no, for diamonds and gold. For diamonds and g-" I turned with my tea cup full to the brim of hot liquid gold, and saw a boy standing there, staring at me.