Darkness. All I can see is darkness, where am I? what am I doing here?
I look up as I saw a guy in front of me, he was looking straight to my eyes as I look to his. I was about to say 'who are you' but a smile flash in my face as I notice who it is, I walk to him but he suddenly step back so I stop, what is he doing? Then he step back again, again, and again. He stop, and look back, as a cliff filled with darkness shows. I can't help but to gasped, Is he planning on jumping in that dark & deep hole? I look at him & I saw fear cross his eyes, he's afraid but he step back again & again. I screamed 'don't' hoping that he will listen & stop, but he didn't, here he comes again on becoming a daredevil & I'm starting to get afraid of what he might do, he's becoming a monster wearing an angelic face that covers all of his sin, he's not ordinary and meeting him was the worst yet the best mistake in my life, but he's the mistake that If I get a another chance in life then I'd surely do it again with no regrets. I cannot afford the thought of losing him.
I let him turned my world upside down, he show me things that are forbidden, he's not what I dreamed of when I was a kid, he's not my prince charming, he's different and his difference from the others made me love him even more, he's my own version of Satan but a romantic one & I learned to love monstrous devil as one exists inside of him.
And ever since he entered my life he became my world, my sweetest downfall, my everything. I don't know if it's right loving him this deep but I also don't care if its wrong, for all I know is I can't & I won't escape to him now, tomorrow nor forever because everywhere I go all I can see is his face, he left a big mark in every piece of me, well I let him owe every piece of me & I'm afraid of what I can do just not lose him,
"Sebastian don't, please." I begged but he just smirk & step again, I held his shirt coz I know one last step then his gone and I can't let that happen.
"You can't leave me, Seb." I can feel tears running through my cheeks, he gave me a 'yes-I-can' look that shut the hell outta me, he was about to step back but I hug him not minding the consequences, as long as I'm with him I'm no longer afraid of anything, then in a split seconds we both fell into that dark & devilish hole, I look at him and shocked was written all over his face, he looked at me confused. I smile, this is what I'm afraid of. I'm afraid because I know I can wholeheartedly risk my own life for him, without any regrets & doubts. Its just that when I'm with him I always become that fearless & reckless bitch who I never thought will exists, maybe because of love and they say love is sacrifice, so I guess that explains everything.
