Den of Monsters

Y1 Vol9: The Golden and The Perfect

(Kushida Kikyo's POV)

what makes a bad person a bad person?...

is it their actions upon others?

or is it perhaps the way they act?

or maybe it's their inner thoughts that make them bad...

well in all honesty i usually wouldn't give a damn about such a concept, i have never felt danger in my life, even when my blog was found i didn't feel scared or guilty, i just watched as everyone beside me kept pulling out their hair in anger and sadness.

'waah what am i going to do now that people know i screwed this girl?!' 

'mom and dad will disown me now that they know i am pregnant!!'

'i want to kill myself...why did my sadness have to be made fun of like that?...'

i honestly found their sadness kind of funny...i always thought to myself: wow...i just ruined this entire class's life! perhaps i am blessed by god?!

 nobody even suspected me back then...all because i was the itty bitty popular girl!, i had all the attention i could've asked for in the world!, and i felt so powerful as these idiots cried and wailed while i comforted them in their ignorance of my doing.

all of my school didn't suspect a thing...all but that BITCH horikita, she questioned me about if i had done all of this even presenting certain aspects of my username as a part of her evidence but it was all useless...even if she did prove it, what would they do to me? expel me? fuck them!, i'll just go to another school and claw my way back into fame.

all went well in the end for me as the bitch simply decided to focus her attention on her stuck up fucker of a brother till we graduated, i thought if i came to this school i'd be free of horikita's bitchy graces but nooo here we are, she is in this school and she is leading our class...or should i say 'leading' our class, since she is basically just a puppet for ayanokoji's will...

and where do i start on ayanokoji, the blandest and most annoying FUCKING guy in the school, so smart and oh so raveshing but i fucking hate him!, i hate him and that bitch ayano!, they both took my place and removed me from the entire class's plan, it's like i don't exist!!

even the stupid girls like karuizawa and matsuhita just straight up abandoned me for ayano, even when i left for a while to test if they'd care everyone just said hi's and hello's then left me alone, but i guess i deserve that kind of thing for working with a monster...

johan liebert...i don't know what i was thinking when i thought i'd be able to fuck him up in someway and have him grovel before me, he started off our small cooperation with threatening me with my reputation and parents but slowly i felt somewhat consumed by his work, everything he asked of me to do somehow made me want to help him more.

giving my clothes to magase-sensei to expel sudo

directing a few girls from another class to bully ichinose-san

helping ryuuen-kun through betrayal of my class

and so on and on, all of it somehow got in ayanokoji's way and made me feel thrilled, i felt strong again!! but i am still scared...he's so mysterious, mysterious to a scary degree, his smile is so true but his words are sharp as a blade...

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i woke up one day in the middle of the night and looked at my phone...it's 4 am...

i sighed as i got up to drink a cup of water, it's been a while since we left okinawa...i miss the beach to be honest...

i went towards the kitchenette and got myself a cup of water and as i drank a sip of it my door bell rang.