Hearts

A year before in winter

I wake up feeling kinda stiff and sore and like I don't wanna lay in this bed anymore even tho it's more comfortable that getting up. I reach for my phone to distract from the stressful thoughts about what I'm gonna do today. Then I get a notification. Bryan liked my story. Wow I thought. We haven't seen each other since like kindergarten. That's crazy. Nothing is a coincidence I thought to myself. As I opened the window and got in the shower I tried to think of why he would be stalking me on social media now. I've been trying so hard to feel good and have optimism, but really this month and even before that has been hard. Maybe it's the cold of winter or maybe it's something else, but it's hard to be happy lately no matter what I try. Today I thought should be my self care day all to myself. I needed it. Shit. I still have to clean today. It shouldn't take too long. I'll just do it then have the rest of the day for shenanigans.