Thoughtless jealousy

Bad side of jealousy

The two rolled apart, their sweating bodies evidence of the closeness just shared.
"I wish we didn't have cameras watching our every move we won't be able to do this in Manila."Jimin pouted.
"There's always a way..." Jungkook smirked .
"S'pose so," Jimin agreed, he got up and went to shower, it was early afternoon and they were supposed to be finishing packing but the two had started kissing which had led to more.
Jimin smiled to himself. It was times like this his insecurities about himself fled. The confident sassy person he showed everyone was a front. He often felt as though he needed to prove his worth to people.
He still held onto the criticisms that he used to see written about him. The fat boy, the ugly shirt boy with no talent. Funnily enough the rejection he always had at the beginning when he set his sights on the maknae Jungkook, who would ignore him push him away and place him last every time there was a vote in front of fans.
It was what drove him to spend hours training on his own to be more worthy of the group, to  make himself better so his longtime crush would finally see him.
The hours spent doing this had meant less time pursuing Jungkook but he'd noticed him, had started reciprocating an attachment so that after he had become of age they had become involved and he'd shown he wasn't the quiet shy maknae but a demanding and energetic 'top' who made Jimin feel cherished.
He came out the shower to see Jungkook hadn't moved, he laughed at him.
"Hey lazy come on we have things to do."
"What, another round?" Jungkook smirked suggestively.
Jimin blushed, he could never get used to this forthrightness .
"What are you going to do after Manila when I have to practice for my dance special ?"
"I'll come to the practice room with you and maybe 'practice' a little with you on the floor."
"Kookie, get your mind out the gutter, anyway as Taemin will be there it's unlikely!"
"Taemin?"
"I knew you weren't listening when we were all in the meeting room yesterday."
"I was napping, now what's this rubbish about Taemin?"
"I was asked to do a dance off with him at the award show,we will be practicing together when the group gets back from Manila."
"No."
""Pardon?"
"I said no, your not doing it with him."
"Don't be silly Kookie it's already been agreed, I haven't got any reason to turn it down, it's amazing that I've been asked."
Jungkook stood up, uncaring off his naked state.
"I said no Jimin, I'm not having you spend so much time with him."
Jimin giggled," you sound so domineering Kookie are you jealous?" He joked thinking Jungkook was joking.
"I'm asking you nicely to cancel this, I don't want you with him."
Jimin saw now that Jungkook was serious.
"Why Kookie, it's a great chance for me to show I can do good and everything is set up, I have to do it."
Jungkook got mad," are you so needy you have to hang around other guys?"
"What...? Of course not...., you know there's only you."
"Do I ? All I see is the flirty looks you give out, all the touchy feely stuff to others, the pouting and acting cute to get your own way, I'm sick of it and now another example of you wanting to show off with another guy!"
Jimin was stunned, did Jungkook really see him like that? He'd been so pleased at being nominated for the dance, he was not the best in the group and he wanted to show them, show Jungkook, he wouldn't let them down .
"I-I didn't realise you saw me like that, I'm sorry if I've annoyed you with my behaviour. I didn't realise it looked like I was flirting..., I tend to gabble away when I'm nervous, I've always been a touchy person, it's a habit from when I was young, touching someone to get their attention as they never listened to me otherwise , cute I don't know, it's just a words fans use."
"That's it blame fans for your attitude, I ask you not to do one thing and I'm ignored, I certainly know where I stand in your life, why do I even bother with you."
Jimin felt a pain deep inside at the others words .
"I-I thought.... You cared for me as much as I do you."
And that's when Jungkook in a fit of jealousy said the words he'd always regret.
"I can have anyone I want, I was mistaken with you, your nothing but self centred , a user to climb the ladder, hell you stay here more than your own place I never asked you too...,  go to your fucking Taemin I don't need you."
He stormed into the bathroom slamming the door.
Jimin stood there, pale and shaking . Is that how Jungkook saw him? He would have laughed if it wasn't so sad, flirting..., he was just happy others felt he was worthwhile to talk to.the rest were things he'd always done, he pouted unknowingly a lot of the time because he was annoyed at himself for getting a dance move wrong or not feeling he'd done well enough.
He turned catching sight of himself in the mirror and seeing the fat, ugly boy his critics saw.
Your so stupid Jimin, of course Jungkook didn't like you look at you...., he'd told you to go didn't he? We'll go on don't make him madder.
He silently picked up his suitcase he'd packed, he bundled the other items he had in Jungkooks room and squashed them inside. Pulling the heavy case out he walked to the front door glancing around at what had become more of a home to him than anywhere else, he'd thought by mutual agreement but obviously not.
He left going to the underground garage and going to his car. Driving off he contacted security.
"You can pick me up from mine tomorrow for the airport not Jungkooks."
It was an open secret in the company about the pair, they hadn't been judged just told to take it easy in front of cameras.
Jimin felt like ice had invaded his body as he fought the self hate inside him, only when he got home did he allow himself to break down sobbing his broken heart out.
Jungkook was fuming, one thing he'd asked that was all, he thought as he spent ages under the hot water. As it calmed him slightly he felt ashamed at some of his words, had he been too harsh, he'd blurted out things without thinking, couldn't Jimin see Taemin liked him a lot, had he done it deliberately to make Jungkook jealous?
He finished his shower putting on a stony front as he left the bathroom but the bedroom was empty.
He got dressed then noticed Jimins case was gone, looking around he realised none of his stuff was in his room, he strode outside.
Jimin was nowhere to be seen.