Thoughtless jealousy

Ego wins

Jungkook had a lousy nights sleep. He was so used to being with Jimin curling himself around the small figure that he slept fitfully.
He got up washing and dressing ready to be picked up.
Jimin will probably apologise in the car he thought,sure that the other would now decline the dance with Taemin. He conveniently forgot his harsh words, just concentrating on the fact he had every right to be angry at his flirtatious boyfriend.
A buzz on his phone told him the car was outside. He went out getting in, finding no Jimin but RM instead.
"Hey Kook, all set?"
"Er...,Yer, are we picking up Jimin?"
"No, he's been picked up and is on his way to the airport."
Jungkook nodded frowning, he'd been sure Jimin would be in his car, wasn't he always?
The car pulled up alongside the others and they got out. The others stepping from their cars too. Jimin got out and Jungkook could see his whole demeanour had changed, he wore dark glasses and hung back a bit keeping his head down.
Jungkook turned away, well if Jimin wasn't going to speak why should he!
They walked through the airport surrounded by their security. Usually Jungkook held onto Jimin keeping him safe but today he strode forward even though he wanted to turn and check Jimin was ok.
When they got on the plane Jimin chose a single seat, this irritated Jungkook. Was he sulking, well let him. He heard Jin speak to him.
"Are you ok Jimin? Your very quiet."
"I'm ok hyung, just tired."
Jin nodded but looked worried, he turned to Jungkook raising an eyebrow but the other just shrugged and turned away.
Jimin curled up facing the window, he hadn't slept it felt like the deep pain inside would never go away. He declined all food and drink on the flight and closed his eyes if anyone came near, he didn't want to talk.
Jungkook noticed, of course he did, he felt a niggle inside but pushed it away, he was in the right, he was owed an apology.
They arrived at their destination and a worried Jin stayed near the small boy who had barely spoken to anyone. He shared a glance with RM who nodded, looking at Jimin then Jungkook.
Of course the maknae acted like nothing was wrong,he didn't show feelings,whereas Jimin was the bright spark of the group, full of laughter and charm which made him adorable to others, but they knew he had his own demons he fought however much they tried to let him know the bad thoughts he had about himself weren't true.
They were taken straight for an interview. Jungkook was fed up with Jimin ignoring him as they sat in line he stared at Jimin sat next to Rm.
Jimin felt the gaze on him, he felt a nervous wreck, wasn't Jungkook happy to have got rid of him.., what more did he want?
He moved back slightly out of the others line of sight.
Jungkook nodded to himself, so he was going to be like that, two could play this game.
Jimin felt nervous his whole body churning, they had to do a dance and song after this.
They took their places, Jimin couldn't look up he was sure he'd see disgust on the others face.
During the dance there was a moment they both knelt and faced each other. Jimin whispered are you ok but all he got was a blank stare before Jungkook jumped up ignoring him and turning to dance. It was too much for Jimin who felt totally abandoned, he bit his lip hard stalling the tears begging to fall. At the end of the song they waved to the fans, Jimin kept far away from Jungkook until he was the last on stage,even the security guy saw his distress and came to walk with him, something Jungkook saw as he turned to see if Jimin was coming.
In the dressing room Jimin grabbed his dark glasses putting them on, he just wanted to get to his hotel room.
Once there he heard Tae ask Jungkook," look we are next to each other we can play games"
Jungkook knew Jimin was Tae's close friend but made a show,
"You can stay in my room if you want, we can play to our hearts content."
"But aren't you and J...."
"I'm going to sleep, I have a headache," Jimin said quietly, disappearing into his room and closing the door.
The rest of the group had definitely noticed the atmosphere." Jungkook shouldn't you see if he's ok?" Hobi said.
"I'm not a babysitter, he told you he has a headache, let him be..., come on Tae," he grabbed the other boy and they disappeared into Jungkooks room.
"What's going on?" Suga asked, he had a soft spot for Jimin, the smaller boy was kindness itself always willing to get things for the others and make sure they were ok.
"Somethings happened but we need to let them sort it out,let's see how things go." RM said.
As far as Jungkook was concerned Manila was his worst trip. He and Jimin barely looked at each other, he stopped high fiving him in the dance routine and Jimin was a shadow of his former happy go lucky self.
Even mealtimes were hard, either Jimin didn't turn up or if he did he barely ate anything. All this Jungkook noticed but he pushed away his worries, he was being the grown up here, Jimin was acting like a stubborn kid, wasn't he.
It was the day they were leaving and for once all were there at breakfast.
"Be nice to get home," Hobi said
"Yer I have some music I want to sort out," Suga said.
"Jimin your starting rehearsals tomorrow aren't you with Taemin?"RM asked
Jimin cleared his throat," yes....we have two weeks,"
"I'm glad you agreed to it, I know you were worried about it but you will be exceptional you shouldn't doubt yourself."
Jungkook listened, Jimin had been worried? Why? He was an amazing dancer, way better he thought than Taemin.
"I'll try my best," Jimin said quietly. Not looking Jungkooks way.
For the first time in days Jungkook could see how nervous Jimin was, he had been so jealous about Taemin being with Jimin that he thought Jimin was deliberately making him jealous, why had he forgotten Jimins insecurities, he'd seen first hand the hours Jimin put in practising, striving to be perfect, hell he'd even told Jungkook he wished he was half as good as him.
Belatedly Jungkook went over the accusations he'd thrown at Jimin all because his ego was hurt.
He felt childish and vowed to make it up to the other, firstly by getting him to come home.
On arrival in Korea they were rushed through the airport, once outside Jungkook tried to get Jimins attention.
"Jimin let's go home in the car together,"
Jimin looked at him blankly and turned to another car which shot off as soon as Jimin got inside.
Frustrated Jungkook text Jimins phone.
"Don't you think this has gone on long enough, why didn't you come home with me?"
He waited then got a reply.
"As you told me, it's your home and I invaded it without your approval. We have nothing to talk about I can see I don't match your high standards, I didn't realise how much I annoyed you, let's just go back to being band mates , you always ignored me before so it shouldn't be hard for you, I wish you well."
Jungkook stared in disbelief, what the fuck had he done, this seemed so...final.
He tried ringing Jimin but was ignored.
He now felt anxious, yes he'd been mad and jealous, his words hurtful had he meant them...no, had he forgotten how Jimin took things to heart...yes. What he'd done was play on every insecurity Jimin had, he'd told Jimin he was flirting when he knew Jimin just loved to chat to everyone and do things for them, he'd said he could have anyone, he knew how insecure Jimin was... this would have shaken him more he would have started despising himself , he'd ignored demoralised and shot down the other basically telling him to get lost and he wondered why Jimin hadn't come back with him! You total ass Jungkook why did you hurt the one you love?