Cinnamons POV.
29 days before.
"If you don't come help me with the food, I'm gonna start throwing stuff around." I side eyed Tish who was sitting on the couch with Courtney joking around. Today is the baby shower and as you could guess, the house is full of family and friends.
Play song. "I'll take it from here. Her ass can't cook anyway." Danai came beside me and grabbed the spoon out of my hand as I smiled at her. "I appreciate it, Auntie, I appreciate you and everything you've done for us. Thank you for being the mother I didn't get to have." I grabbed my water and rubbed her back as she grinned putting all of the food together. I waddled over to Tish and sat down next to her while she was still engaged in the conversation she was having. She had on this yellow satin silk outfit that gave off the same feeling of her soft skin. Everything lately has been normal except for the Braxton contractions which was totally expected. I'm so ready for this little guy inside of me to come out and conquer the world.
"This is why I fell in love with you." Letitia's voice rang through my ears lowly while her hand was placed on my thigh. I lifted an eyebrow and tried not to smile. "What is the 'this'?" I whispered back in the same tone as she came back to my ear. "This room is full of loud conversations and music but you simply being here is the loudest most beautiful thing I've ever heard." She placed a kiss on my ear and went back to the conversation with Courtney. That alone was enough to keep me satisfied years to come. The girl has always been smooth as shea butter and I guess you could say that's why I admire her.
I heard the door open as Journey walked in with a bottle of wine and a bag. "Well look at my girl." Courtney sat back as her legs separated. It's like she automatically relaxed whenever she walked in and Tish noticed it as well which caused her to smile. "Hey girl." She hugged me from behind after setting the wine and gift on the table.
"Hey, lil bill!" Journey teased Letitia as I covered my mouth trying not to laugh. Her jaw dropped as she looked at me to defend her. "My babies head is cuteeee." I wrapped my arms around Letitias neck as Journey smacked her lips and sat on Courtney's lap.
"While everyone's here, I just want to say that I love you guys. There are family then there are friends but you guys have become apart of me. That is something that I could die peacefully with." I smiled as Courtney gave me that same smile she gave me when we were in the store that one time.
"You are my Nemo and if I ever lost you, I'd just keep swimming." Journey tried to sound sweet but Letitia groaned as I threw a pillow at her. "Slow ass." Courtney rolled her eyes as Journey giggled. "I'd search the ocean to find you." She finally said. My heart and purpose is completely fulfilled.
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After we ate and opened the gifts for the baby, the party came to an end. Danai made everyone clean and shut down by threatening them while I went to the babies room to put away his gifts. In all seriousness, I'm scared to be a mom. I'm always gonna be wondering if I'm doing something wrong when I just want to be the best mom possible. My thoughts were interrupted to an undeniable presence in the room. "He's gonna have everything and more, you know?" I walked to rocking chair and took a seat as I looked at my woman leaning against the door frame.
"He's already going to have an amazing mom but having 2? Bananas." She cooed causing me to laugh as she walked over to sit in front of me.
"But Cinnamon..I'm scared. Scared on if Im doing something wrong." Her eyes gazed out of the window that stared over the beautiful city while she twiddled her thumbs. We are so connected in more ways than one because I swear I was thinking the same thing. "Well, beautiful, one thing I have come to realize is we aren't going to be perfect parents." I grabbed her hand and slipped out of the chair to sit next to her. "But we will damn sure try our hardest every damn day of his life and that is enough." I finished as she laid her head on my shoulder.
"Your brother would be so proud of you Letitia. The way you've grown and matured is something so beautiful..so pure." She looked at me with an expression that had a sense of relief. "I am so proud of the woman you've become. We got this. You got this, you hear me?" She nodded as I laid a small kiss on her forehead then glanced in her eyes like it was my last time doing it. That feeling came rushing my stomach. That overwhelming feeling of love and butterflies to know I've found and loved my soulmate. To know that I will love her until my last breath of air.
"My wife." She referenced to the first time she said it when we got engaged which caused me to blush. "I love you, Cinnamon Denise." My eyes closed as a sigh of relief left my body.
"I love you more, Letitia Michelle."
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