𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐐𝐮𝐞𝐞𝐧'𝐬 𝐆𝐚𝐦𝐛𝐢𝐭 - Chishiya Shuntaro AIB

23- ☟ 𝐒𝐢𝐧𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠

𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒎𝒂𝒅𝒆 𝒎𝒆 𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒍 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒊𝒕'𝒔 𝒂 𝒃𝒂𝒅 𝒅𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒎
𝑱𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒂 𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒍𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝑰 𝒊𝒎𝒂𝒈𝒊𝒏𝒆𝒅
𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝒕𝒓𝒖𝒕𝒉 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅𝒏'𝒕 𝒔𝒊𝒏𝒌 𝒊𝒏
𝑩𝒖𝒕 𝒎𝒚 𝒄𝒉𝒆𝒔𝒕 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒔𝒊𝒏𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈

♧.♤.♡.♢  

I was deeply asleep when I feel something moving me a little. I was debating between giving in and staying asleep or waking up. By the time I was debating, I feel my body being slightly shaken again. So I give up and open my eyes faintly

'Hey' Chishiya says softly 'Slept well?'

'Hum hum' I nod

'We shouldn't stay there for too long. We don't know yet how the King of Spades operates but staying too long at the same place isn't safe'

'Alright' I sight and stretch before slowly standing up

'How do you feel?' He asks looking at my wound

I look down at it and instead of seeing the gauze, I see some material. By the time I was sleeping, he had put a red hoodie on me. 'I-It hurts a little but I'm fine'. I say as he helps me get back on my feet

We get out of the building carefully looking around for any signs of the killer. But its airship is far away, on the east side

'If I am correct, the airship indicates the King's movement. So we should be safe for the moment and move ouest.' Chishiya explains his theory while walking

'Does that mean his playground is the whole town?' I ask walking by his side

'I believe so. This also means, the only way to be safe from him is to enter another arena and participate in a game' He adds

'Great' I sarcastically say

'I believe you and I both have some spare days left on our visa. So we should be okay while you recover from your injury before needing to play again' 

The rest of the walk went by quietly. None of us had the wish to talk as we both knew there was still an important conversation we needed to have. We simply walked along the other, enjoying the time we had missed from being away. I could tell Chishiya was in deep thought throughout our walk, having a huge debate within himself. The reason from it unknown yet

We walk through many streets, coming close to a few arenas such as the Queen of Clubs from which we heard many people scream or the Jack of Hearts, which explosions echoed from

'We should be okay there for a few days. As long as we keep an eye out for the King of Spade' Chishiya breaks the long silence and stops before a building

'Another hotel?' I ask shielding my eyes from the unconfortable falling sun

'It's great, plenty of rooms, food and medical stuff to take care of your wound'. He explains before we fall into silence. Somehow I feel like something shifted, the silence is uncomfortable too, and there are so many untold stories, so many questions.

'Why did you leave me?' I ask having enough of it turning in my head

'Why do you mean, I'm right he-'

'Don't play with me like that. You patched me up after the ten of heart and then you left me. Why?' I cut him off

He looks at me, thousands of thoughts racing behind his eyes, yet no words are coming out. He was definitely fighting with himself

'Come on, we need to get inside before-'

'NO!' I shout and grab his arm. 'I have every right to know Chishiya, so stop playing with me and answer the question. For once in your life be honest and don't try to be the smartest! Just for once leave your brain on the side and talk to me!!' I don't know why all of this meant so much to me. But I couldn't stay in the unknown. Maybe because he made his way to me, because he's part of the few rare people I allow, maybe because I care about him, a little too much...

I feel something cold on my cheek, but even if my eyes are threatening to water it's not a tear, it's raining. The sky darkened as the night falls and brought rain alongside.

I am breathing heavily. If I have to admit everything I feel then I'll do it. I almost died! Hell, I was ready to die for him!! So I don't care anymore if I have to say it I will, but I need to know what I mean to him

'Why did you take that bullet for me?' He asks instead

'what? I asked a question first'

'The answer is the same as yours' He says 

'What am I supposed to understand there? You left me because you like me?! This doesn't make any sence' I laugh 

'Exactly. You took the bullet because you like me. I saved your life because I like you and I left you because I lo-'
He pauses, I never saw him losing his temper.
'Because You almost died for me, I was the cause of it. I couldn't let it happen again so I left and I'll do it again because it's the only right thing!' 

'What?' I am dumbfounded

'I am not a good person' He says quickly and I answer even quicker because I know where this is going

'Even the moon has a dark side Chishiya'

'You'll only end up getting hurt if you stay around me'

'I'll only get hurt if you're not around to save me!'

'YOU'LL ONLY END UP DEAD BECAUSE OF ME!' He yells and more water falls down my cheeks but this time it's saltier and I thank the rain for masking it. 'And I can't- I- I can't let it happen'

I shake my head. 'No. No, no, no. You don't get to make that decision'

'I'm sorry' He says and for once he means it. He takes a step back and I take one forward

'So it means nothing to you? All of this. Everything that we did, does it really mean nothing to you!?' I yell. 'All this time, was it just another game of yours? Because you would always win. One day you like me and the next you crush me. It's like we've been living in a chess game but you changed the rules everyday! '

'you don't understand' He simply answers

'Then help me understand! But don't you dare leave me' I say with greeted teeth. 'Please Chishiya don't make me regret letting you in!'
I say barely above a whisper 'don't make me regret the fact that I love you'

He eyes saddens as he takes a step toward me, and for a second I feel relieved. He places his right hand on my cheek and strokes away the warm tears. His head comes closer to mine, his forehead pressed against mine, his lips barely touching mine. I close my eyes, being bewitched by his presence

'Love is nothing but a weakness. Shall we both be set free from it' He whispers against my lips before breaking all physical contact abruptly. 

I don't dare open my eyes. I want to stay in this moment for a few seconds more. Under the pouring rain. Because I know that when I open my eyes, the cold feeling his skin left from mine won't only be physical. Because once I open my eyes, I'll be all alone

And I am right, and it hurts, and I hate it.

I hate him

I hate the fact that he left me that way

I hate how easily it is for him to leave me

I hate how much power he has on me

I hate how even though he is supposed to be a diamond player, he is the one who played with my heart!!

My heart is aching, the truth wouldn't sink in but my chest starts sinking. Like it's being burned down to ashes, drowned in tears and shattered in pieces...

And it hurts - It hurts so much

We're in a world of death and cruel games, people are dying all the time, there's nothing but fear and cruelty. I survived it all. I won it all. Yet what hurt me and broke me down is a simple man

So I scream, I scream as loud as I can, so loud, trying to take the pain out of my body until I fall on my knees from exhaustion. 

I lay on the ground, feeling the rain falling on my body. I stare at the sky and see that the clouds took over the sky completely.

The moon isn't shining tonight

There is nothing else but a midnight rain

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