1.29.23 23:00
Its an hour before i turn sixteen and im having a breakdown.
Its been too long since the last time ive ever felt truly like myself and for so long ive never been bothered by it. But its getting hard to deal with. Its getting harder to keep myself from letting go of myself at this point, im never wholy present anymore. My dreams feel like memories but at the same time my dreams feel so real i could never tell apart my dreams from real events anymore.
Im losing myself. And none of my friends deserve to have a person who's never attentive, whos never wholy there, whos on the verge of forgetting everything theyve ever done.
its getting exhausting.
