Entangled Love

Broken Love

Growing up watching my friends getting heartbroken I made a promise to myself. I decided not to fall inlove I protected my heart for years until I met "Him"
I don't fall inlove but yet still his face constantly runs on my mind I try my best to ignore it but the more I try the harder it gets not to fall for him he's a player this I know but yet still I see a spark of change in him... Why is this??? I ask myself, am I dum for believing he'll ever change even tho he shows no sign of romance and thinks it dum I still feel fascinated by his words. He's a bad guy,or is he I think to myself, he can be so gentle with me but yet so rough at the same time.

He wanted to get intimate in public but it's too soon I can't I won't, the thoughts in my mind said....

With his hands in my clothes slowly
I slowly gasped and said Stop!!! My head hurts.. being as real as my lie sounded he fell for it.

I had to make it look believely so I pretended to be weak and helpless he gentle took my head and placed it in his lap. Stroking my hair and comforting me. I felt so relaxed I closed my eye's almost falling asleep..

'When I heard'.....

I love you he said, with his reassuring eyes. My heart beating like a drum I want to say I love you too but am I going to regret it. I rather just pretend like I didn't hear... wow I fell asleep after the sudden I love you..

Bae! He said, with a kiss on the forehead How are you feeling now. Does your head still hurts.

YesI said, aww he looked at me as if he had felt all my pain

Unfortunately this is not a fairytale and not everyone gets happy ever after. Reality is he's a player get your self together Unknown Lover🥀you know the outcome of falling in this situation I don't want to see you get hurt.

Fuck,Fuck!!!!! MY EGO IS RIGHT!!
I can't I won't be one of his victims

So what should I do? Let my heart rule me and be one of his victims or should I use my brain and secure my heart.

He tries his best to convince me but after I do I regret it I really regret it.I'm so tired of being lied to. He lied to my face. They say expect disappointment so you don't get disappointed but I kinda saw this coming the fact that he kissed her and fucked her and lied to my face about it

The anger burns my skin like acid.

"Kill him!!"
"Kill him!!"

The voices in my head said
Almost let 5 years of theraphy down the drain. But knowing who I am and what I stand for I won't stoop that low..

All my emotions are just mixed feelings but I just have to go with my brain. As much as it hurts its better to be safe than sorry. I guess I rlly have a type🫥. If only you were made for me but I guess we weren't suppose to be apart of each other future. If this was a test from God I get it but this was harsh and now my heart bleeds from the scars he gave me. My heart breaks My fucking heart breaks

Is love real?
I'm starting to think that's a fantasy type a shit.
How can something that was described to be the best thing ever hurts so fucking bad.

I feel damaged,drained,emotionless,stupid,numb.

Unknown Lover🖤🥀