I saw her across the room, I want her but I'm scared haha me scared wow the first. I see her again in two other class we start talking "friends" we talk for a couple hours a night but then every thing changed that summer feelings got heavy and I opened up for the first time stupid me I was late she was already with someone I hated them for days I was lost, depressed and angry but like always forgave her she's single now I still didn't feel better. We text a lot then things changed again everyone said I should leave her alone I lost my girlfriend because in both of our minds I cheated I was in love with another girl my girlfriend saw. It was hard letting one and half years go down they drain just like her tears ran down her face for the first time I lied to my girlfriend "she's just a friend" the lie repeated it self over and over as she read through our messages. We fought for the first time because I called her the other girls name she cried for hours I felt so bad because I do love my girlfriend but the other girl was different I smiled every time I saw her she's on my mind all day everyday but for what she lied she told me she loved me I feel in to it she said she feels the same way made me want her more then she dined me that hurt I don't cry but that day I cried my girlfriend is gone I hurt her in words that I can't even explain I wish I never did but it's too late I'm in the same seat she was in I'm in love with a girl that won't even say hi to me unless she's alone or text me unless she needs my comforting and yep I give it to her like always because I still love her even though my heart hurts every time I hear her name or see her because we both know how she said she felt was a lie don't tell me one day when u mean never we still talk but it's not the same and never will be the days go by we walk pass each other in the hallway if I don't speak we won't talk at all she acts like that when were in school, she began to get violent so I stayed away for a bit but I get "why you not talking to her". I'm her support system her sound board I hate it I hate her for treating me this way but it is what it is, I lost the first person that really cared about me because I wanted something I thought I was going to get but I was wrong because she wasted my time and my emotions.
