you can always die again

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"Love could be labeled poison and we'd still drink it "

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I'm dead.

See some people may think I'm just fucking around, you know .

But although I am serious on very few occasions this happens to be one of them.

I died in 2009 and i had been wandering around this soulless plain for as long as I could remember, trying to find some sort of  entertainment .

But although I have used all the light in my soul to create or end something these attempts have not been a success.

Then one day. Whilst I was sitting in the abbyss of broken souls , hopes , and dreams.

A light flickered.

In the distance.

A little flicker that turned into a whole, that turned into a bigger whole , that turned into a rip in what I assume was space time continuum. Or whatever those smart people call it. Please I'm dead I no longer need to remember the pyghagorus theorem so I wasn't trying to.

Anywho. Because of the nosy bitch I am, I stuck my nose into someone else's business and found myself looking at her.

Nirah.

A goddess.

More importantly ,

My goddess.

I jumped straight in. Not knowing what was awaiting me but ready for it nonetheless I was ready.
Ready for anything,everything, and nothing all at once.

Ready for the abbyss to swallow me whole and transport me into some other vessel as a punishment for trying to escape their judgement. For disrespecting the rules of their world,whoever they where .

She got closer and closer and closer and closer .

Fueling me with excitement and nervousness as the abbyss furthered away from  my floating body and nirah came closer.

My nirah.

I am now spiraling both theoretically and physically. My body moving with such speed as if i was breaking the sound barrier of earth, as if I was flying back into my atmosphere, as if this was all a dream and my mind had just drifted off too far and some one or something  was pulling me back , begging for me to be by their side so they don't collapse or something else won't collapse.

My mind spiraled at the feeling , as tbe nauseating gut feeling I was getting that this is wrong , that this was not how the abbyss is intended to be , but something else told me this is right, someone was pulling me back for a reason , for a reason i may not comprehend right now or ever again but it was there. The reason was there nevertheless.