Are you sure I deserve a love story someday?
I'm in love with someone and that is a girl it breaks my heart for thinking she's not gonna feel the same way I did the best I could to love her as a friend it's because I do love her as a friend more than as a friend and I wanna be that good friend for her, not some random who's stupid enough for falling for her,
This is not me and I know the stuff I said about her and the playlist I gave her that every song I listen catch up dozens of words that how much I love her.
I can't believe telling everyone by coming out meant nothing like I was a bisexual or something to be honest she is the best part as Joe Goldberg once say you will do anything for love, and love is kind love is patient but also, mainly above all yes love is perverted.
You know what's crazy I thought I got over it? But suddenly the feelings I had with her is somehow is still there my sister was right it will get deeper if I didn't let go I had other reason why I didn't let her go it's because of love? Or it's because she's the only person you can talk to like no one else does? I mean I can't hurt her and I don't want to lose her,
To be honest, I didn't care what everyone said or heard about her like she's weird or something to be honest I like weird she doesn't pretend that something she's not I mean people don't even know her as I do I'm the only one person who can see the good things in her everything she did tough me it was amazing she knows everything about the world like I do and I didn't know anything about the world like what's gonna happen? until she was there telling me everything and I've never had this kind of love with her I know it's wrong, to be honest, she made me realize what love is and how great she was, that's why people never understand this and I don't regret meeting her she's great and beautiful and she's so gentle
And also sweet, smart I've never thought falling with someone is great and for the most part, she will never feel the same way I mean it sucks things doesn't work out the way you wanted,
Love who we love sucks.
I only wish I could be a part of her life more but... it turns out to be so hard and I saw her there holding hands with someone in the restaurant well... for me it was nice to do the right thing and it hurts me for not having my own love story with her somehow my feelings are still there is still there and I don't know how long I can't control it
And it makes me think I would never have that kind of life like a love life I know it's wrong but... I didn't mean too I don't know what's got into me I had that feeling she was afraid to lose me and I was afraid to lose her too, I miss her so much and I hope she misses me too. Love makes us do crazy things
I'm doing the best I can to move on and listening to her every chance I get it's because she's my friend or I'm just her friend more like bestie when she needed the most I'm just trying my best to be there for her when she got hurt or heart broken I mean I will do my best to be there for her and I will make the most best of it, can't force her to love me back but the one thing I will never forget her kindness, her beautiful strong personality and the way she was there for me when I needed advice and she make me feel safe, I will never forget how gently she is and the best person you could count on like I said before she's one of the beautiful I know she was best part she brings out the best in me. if the person you love doesn't love us back it's okay because if your really love her you should let her/him go because that's the only way that we could never feel pain know matter how hard it is... it's time to let go. ( let them go it's for the best )
Know matter where you are or who you with...
I will always truly deeply love you
To be honest, I didn't care what everyone said or heard about her I mean people don't even know her as I do I'm the only one person who can see the good things in her everything she did tough me it was amazing she knows Jehovah as I do and I didn't know anything about him until she was there telling me everything and I've never had this kind of love with her I know it's wrong, to be honest, she made realize what love is and how great she was, that's why people never understand this and I don't regret meeting her she's great and beautiful and she's so gentle
And also sweet, smart I've never thought falling with someone is great and for the most part, she will never feel the same way I mean it sucks things doesn't work out the way you wanted,
Love who we love sucks.
I only wish I could be a part of her life more but... it turns out is not easy, what if I become a Jehovah's Witnesses and I saw her there holding a Bible and I'm finally happy that I get a chance to see her in life laugh with her meeting her friends and reading the Bible with them like going to door talking to people about the bible, teaching them who is Jehovah is, since this covid happen there not going door to door right now all they do is writing letters to people and making phone calls doing Bible zoom it was nice to do the right thing and it hurts me for not having my own love story with her somehow my feelings are still there is still there and I don't know how long I can't control it
And it makes me think I would never have that kind of life like a love life I know it's wrong but... I didn't mean too I don't know what's got into me I had that feeling she was afraid to lose me and I was afraid to lose her too, I miss her so much and I hope she misses me too. Love makes us do crazy things
I'm doing the best I can to move on and listening to her every chance I get it's because she's my friend or I'm just her Bible student and she's just my Bible teacher, I know is wrong I know I made a mistake I guess love makes us do stupid things you know what they say what is the craziest thing you do for love?? Well... for me I will risk it all if I can.
I mean if it doesn't work then I give up nothing doesn't make sense about waiting for forcing someone to like you back or love you back just a tip for that never fall in love with someone who doesn't love you back,
I only wish I could go back in time that never happened why did I fall for her ?? Oh wait I forgot she was so gentle and sweet she was the best part and she bring out the best in me,
if she didn't like me back as I do I guess I should move on and to be I already move on this is me trying to forget her but most of the time I texted her and she still send me this scripture and stuff I couldn't even tell I should probably stop texting her but I can't do that I didn't wanted to her feelings and were okay nothing much since the last time I talk to her on zoom, she's from New Jersey and she use to live in California yes I meet her in person which we were shy at the time and we didn't know what to do after words all I know is I shake her hand I tried to be friendly even though I'm shy, still doing the best I can to be friendly and like introduce myself, like I'm leane always the same thing in my own mouth,
