Lonesome longing

Stupid boy

I wish you would love me like I love you.
I want to know if you think of me the way I think of you.
I want to know if you think of me at night before you go to bed, in the mornings, wishing to hold me as I wish to hold you, I want to see your smile, I want to see your joy, yet you live so far.
Maybe l'Il never get to see that beautiful smile, hear that gorgeous laugh in person, hold those gentle hands, nothing.
My heart longs for you and it's unfair how hard it is to convey that to you.
wish I could just tell you how I long to kiss you, how I long to make you fall in love with me the way I fell in love with you.

If only you hadn't messaged me at the time you did.

Maybe then I wouldn't look at your picture
so longingly.
Maybe I wouldn't be fantasizing about your touch, about your laugh, your voice, your eyes,
your smile. Maybe I could love someone else but no,

I'm in love with you, and it hurts.