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Man, it's been a long time since we talked here, years ago, I still don't remember where we first talked but I remember this was years ago 

I'm not gonna blame you, I forgave you, cause it's my choice, it feels good to read your feelings and what's going on your mind, even the idea of you stalking me is weird and kinda scary, and the idea of me being not so pretty is much much weirder! 

I need to make some clarifications, First, I don't think you're a psychopath, love make miracles, i know what it is like to love someone, second, i know that you lived some bad situations, and you've been going through some horrible things that no one could imagine, i know that your relationship with your dad was really bad, even when you were little, and i know that you've grown up with so much trauma, third, I'm not gonna blame you for leaving me, ni for stalking me, two horrible things, et ni for not 'watering' me as you said, instead of that, I'm gonna thank you, because of that i learned how to be strong without water, without sun, i belong to my roots before anything else, I belong to Rayhane and I am strong cause I am her, you were a part of my healing journey, and because of your départ i learned how to carry myself and be there for myself when the persons I trust may left me, and I learned how to active the beast mode and never ever trusting anyone again. Finally, him, we didn't chose each other, we were meant to be, he was there for me when i was against myself, he made me feel safe, he showed me who I am and he made me learn how to be the woman of my dreams, my man is a huge blessing that I am so thankful for alhamdulillah, he is my everything 

I know that you loved me a Anass, and i know that i mean so much to you, more than just your first love, and I wanna tell you something, one day, your room will be full of love and joy, it is a lesson learned the Hardest way, but i wanna ask you for something, the day you will find the girl that will love you and give you the energy you need, invite her at the right time, take care of her, provide her a good life, give her everything she needs, love affection and everything else, never be afraid to express your feelings, it's not a weak caractère tu sais, et surtout, never ever leave her, and let her ask herself that question, "Is it my fault, did I do something wrong",make her the happiest and matkhelihach di3 men yedik

And remember, never ever manipulate someone you love, cause at the end of the day, you're hurting yourself and only yourself.

By the way, man are you sure of what you said, I have never ever seen someone more gorgeous than the girl I see in the mirror every single morning, hella pretty, taht was weird! 

Anass, I know that it's not easy to express feelings like these, but trust me, your room will be perfect one day, at least for you, i wish this asat, cause I'd never forget the people i loved in a part of my life

And, to clarify things more, I'm not ignoring you as much as I am protecting my peace, I respect my own space and I don't want anyone to be in it, I'm not the little girl you knew that time, many things changed, and i can tell, I'm a different person, and it's hard to know who I am and how I think now. Thankful for your understanding. 

A response from the girl that made you chose her before the gf you said you won't have until 5 years from that time, your first love, the girl that you confessed to her after years and nights

The woman, that you wrote all this about her

Rayhane ❤️