Lalisa Love Me (HunLisa Fanfiction)

33: HANDS

33:  HANDS
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L I S A

To be honest, I just know I want to be with Sehun.

But I don't know how to start. What to do.. and how to make the best decision out of this decision of mine to go back to my monkey. All I know is that I don't want to go back to being scared again.

I don't want to lose him again.

"What are you thinking?"

I snapped out of my thoughts when Jisoo Unnie asked. We where on a plane boarding on our next destination tour. Sehun is on the other side of the plane and I am planning to sneak out and be with him.

"Uhm.. nothing." I avoided her eye.

Both Jennie Unnie and Rosé are sleeping on the other side. Jisoo Unnie squinted her eyes at me and I can't help but gulp the lump that I feel on my throat.

Her motherly instinct is working, I know she could tell I'm lying. "You know you can't lie to me, Lis. Care to tell me what is it? Is there anything.. or anyone bothering you?"

I heave a deep breath as I lick my lower lip.

I look down at the rubric cube that I'm trying so hard to put together. Sehun gave it to me before we board the plane.

"If.. if I told you.." I started even though I'm nervous.

Jisoo Unnie hated every member of exo after what happened to Rosé. She even broke of with Suho, her secret boyfriend -ex who is the leader of exo because of it.

I got a feeling that she'll tell me to break up with Sehun the moment I tell her what's happening.. but.. if I won't tell her, it'll just be like the past all over again. Me and Sehun being together without any of our members knowing.

And.. if Jisoo Unnie will continue to hate exo, when will I ever get a chance to tell her? I don't want to keep a secret from her. Or from any of my members.

I fidgeted on the rubrics that I'm holding, "I-if I told you, I'm back together with Sehun, what would you do? Unnie?"

Jisoo Unnie paused for a while.

Our eyes met and she stared at my face in confusion. I saw a glimpse of hesitation run on her eyes and then she blinked, and I can't read her eyes anymore. Her lips in a thin line that I can't help but look away.

"You got back together with him?" She asked.

For some reason, I can't understand the tone of her voice. I don't know if she's angry with me or not.. I just know that her voice is deep and asking but there's no hint of her feelings whatsoever.

"Unnie--"

"Lisa." She cut me off. "Do you know what happened to Rosé when she dated an exo member?"

I bit my tongue before I nodded slowly.

"Not to mention, Jennie and Kai. Do you know how that guy broke Jennie's heart?"

"I thought Jennie broke up with--"

"That doesn't disregard the fact that Jennie is brokenhearted because of him!" She hissed.

"And you too.." I can't help but added. "Because of their Leader, right? Unnie?"

Jisoo Unnie grew silent as she stared at me. As if she can't accept the fact that I hit a fragile spot in her. As if she can't believe that I said those words on her face.

I showed her a soft determine smile, "Jisoo Unnie, if you stop me now and order me to break up with Sehun.. you're going to be the one breaking my heart.." I said those words slowly.