bravertz - oneshots

I wish, you would've told me.

                         "ich müsste lügen wenn ich sagen würde; ich habe dich nie geliebt."

                                           (i would lie, if i would say; i've never loved you.)

He just wanted to forget.

It was one of these nights where he just felt lonely and that's why he called his friends to go out. He couldn't bare the emptiness in his chest anymore. Going out, drinking and spending time with his friends would distract him but he also wished for his feelings to get numb in a couple of hours.

It was almost a year ago.

A year ago when he got betrayed by the person he thought, would never betray or leave him. The first and probably last person he ever loved.

But still, after all this time he's still hurting. He never thought that a heartbreak could break him into pieces like that. Because normally Kai was very good with the whole forgetting and forgiving shit, but not this time, not after everything that happened.

By the time they arrived at the club he swore he would not allow himself thinking about him tonight. He wanted to have a good time with his friends, wanted to feel the warmth of the alcohol and just have fun.

They got their first round of drinks and Kai was indeed having fun. He knew he needed a few drinks more to not feel anything but gladly his friends decided that the second round was already one or shots. A great way to get drunk more quickly, just what he needed.

After four shots for everyone they decided to take over the dance floor. He finally started to feel the alcohol in his veins. His vision got a little blurry and he found himself talking nonsense with his friends. The dancing felt great, even though he normally wouldn't describe himself as a great dancer, but that didn't matter right now.

After a while on the dance floor, he decided to get a few more drinks for himself and his friends. He pulled one of his friends over to come with him, because he clearly wasn't able to carry all the drinks on his own and made his way to the bar, his friend tagging along.

While they were waiting, his eyes wandered through the club. He saw people dancing, sweating, kissing and laughing. It felt like a good night, everyone seemed to have fun and the DJ was just smashing it tonight.

His eyes stopped for a second when he saw who just came through the door.

He was wearing his white Nike Air Force, a black jeans and a white button down. His arms were adorned with wristbands. On his hands, a few rings and of course the two necklaces around his neck, he always had to wear.

His blonde hair was up, his blue eyes beaming. The smile on his face brought out his dimples and for a few seconds Kai was not so drunk anymore. No, he was almost sobered up.

Seeing Julian after such a long time shouldn't take him out like that, but unfortunately it did. He could lie to himself, telling himself that he was feeling nothing, that he had no effect on him anymore. But that was a lie, a terrible lie. He felt everything he shouldn't feel, all the feelings that he worked so hard on to forget over the past year.

His Ex was slowly checking out the room now. His hands fumbling on the sleeves of his shirt like he always did when he was a little bit nervous.

After what seemed like an eternity for Kai, Julian's eyes stopped at him.

Shit.

He didn't know how to react, because suddenly he felt too much and was too overwhelmed with his feelings.