MY DEAR || A beautiful Arranged Marriage~

FOUR

KANAN'S POV

After the night we went out together, there were many changes between the relationship we shared. There were more eye contacts and shared smiles. Every time he needed something, instead of saying, "Ummm....", he said my name. the letters of my name when slipped from his mouth were so beautiful that I wanted him to take my name almost all the time. A smile came on my lips as I packed the last sandwich in his tiffin box.

Picking up the lunch box, I sped towards our room. I can't keep him waiting for long, today he has some important meeting. As I was about to enter the room, I stopped at the door and gave a knock at first as he was busy reading some papers. As soon as he heard the soft knock on the door, he raised his face to give me a glance. He quickly crumpled the paper in his hand. His other hand went towards the other sheets and he pushed them under the pillow.

"Yeah Kanan?" He got up from the bed and came towards me. I was still thinking about those papers he just hid.

"What's there for lunch today hmm?" He smiled a dimple smile and took the box from my hand. "I will keep it okay. Could you please give me a moment?"

I nodded and just left the place.

My mind was still diverted to those sheets only. What could it be? It was something which he did not want to show me. Of course how would he start showing me everything when I am still a stranger wife to him? I went back to the kitchen, cleaned the slabs and prepared a cup of coffee for him.

All this time I thought he loved me or something, was my imagination. I had been hallucinating that he loves me and that is why he is so caring and affectionate towards me. But if not caring then how else would he behave with me? Being rude and unnecessarily weird or arrogant is not the type of person he truly is. I don't know why but his hiding just few papers from me made me sad and dejected to a far extent.

I didn't go till the gate to wave him a bye, rather went upstairs, plugging in my ear buds, listening to "Let me down slowly" by "Alex Benjamin". I wanted to clear off my mind of all the negative thoughts.

After around an hour or so, I decided to go back down. I went inside our shared bedroom. Mom and dad had gone out to some relatives place today, everything felt so lonely and empty. I sat on my bed, my eyes fell upon that card, I picked it up. Our lines....

A smile came on my face as I delicately touched the phrases. Maybe it was not love, but the collaboration of two artists. I picked up my notepad from the drawer and with my pen started to write some lines coming in my mind...

For two moments I was attached to you,
Then the path was turned such
(that) I started getting lost from you
Like getting away
was something mine from me..

I wiped off the tears from my eyes. I went towards the couch, where he sleeps. I sat there and took his cushion in my hands.

"What are you Viraj Shekhawat?"

I started to cry, I myself didn't know why it was hurting me so much.

"What are you hmm? You were not something I wanted, but you became something which I want now. You love, your care, your happiness, your pain, and you... Everything about you... I want everything Viraj. I want to be your secret keeper. I want you to trust me. I want you to share your darkest secrets with me, Viraj. I am your wife...." I broke into tears.

For the first time in my life, after meeting a man like him in my life, I had started to believe that love like fairy tales do exist. I have made you my prince... I saw our picture together.

What would he be doing right now? Would he be thinking of me? I wiped my tears and decided not to cry anymore. It is just the start of our marriage. It will take time. There are so many things about me as well. I also haven't told him everything right? It is okay Kanan. I knew I was just convincing myself but somehow I had to let it go.