Always (A Solange Story)

Overheard

Solange's P.O.V

I stood with Beyoncé as I watched Y/N from afar. She laughed along with Jay, Julez, and my mother, Tina. I always loved how she was with Julez.

I also love the relationship she has with my mother. You would think Tina loves her more than me and Bey. I don't really mind it. It actually makes me happy.

"As hard as you are staring at her you would think she can feel that shit." Bey said.

"Oh, shut up." I say.

"Seriously sis you need to get a grip. Just tell her that you like her. It's been like twenty years." She says.

"That's the problem. I don't just like her and it has not been that long." I reply.

"Keep telling yourself that." She mumbled.

Y/N looked over this way and smiled at me. I smiled back getting that warm feeling in my chest. It's been this way for so long. For me to be so confident in everything else, I can't seem tell her something as simple as my feelings.

Bey and I walked over there to join the rest of them. Y/N wrapped her arm around my shoulder making me feel all types of things. She's always been a touchy person.

As much as I love it I also hate it. I know this is just her being friendly but this is not the way I want her to touch me. I won't even get into that right now. That's for a different time.

The brunch wrapped up smoothly. I had a really good time. Bey and Jay were gonna join Y/N and I but I didn't mind. They weren't gonna hang out for long. They never really do.

I said goodbye to my son and mother before leaving. We all went back to Y/N's house. I haven't been here in awhile. It feels like it's my first time all over again.

We all went to the movie room. While Jay and Y/N we're choosing the movie, my sister and I volunteered to get the snacks. She has the best snack room that I've ever seen.

"I think you should take advantage of this opportunity." Beyoncé said grabbing random shit.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"I mean you should tell her how you feel. The worst thing that can honestly happen is that she doesn't feel the same. It's scary but at least you'd know. As your sister it hurts me to watch you torture yourself like this." She responds.

I sighed knowing that she's right. This has been going on for too long. I'm actually convinced that it has been twenty years at this point. Maybe the outcome will be different than I expect it to be.

"Alright fine. It's about time anyway." I say.

"It was time twenty years ago." Bey chuckled.

I rolled my eyes before going back to the movie room. I stopped when I heard them talking about me. I hid behind the door listening closely.

"Girl what the hell did you stop for?" Bey asked.

"Just shut up and listen." I say.

"You remember Solange's wedding?" Jay asked.

"I can never forget it. Why you always bring that shit up?" Y/N questioned.

"Because it makes me laugh and I get to tease you for it. You were the biggest hater in the world that night." Jay laughed.

Hater? What was she hating on? She seemed so supportive and happy for me. At least that's what it looked liked to me.

"You damn right I was hating. Solo thinking I'm supporting her and I was but it was all wrong. I'm still mad you ain't let me object." Y/N said.

"You would've caused a whole scene. The girl looked happy that's what mattered." Jay said.

"She looked happy with the wrong person though bro. Imagine if you had to watch Beyoncé marry somebody else. You woulda died on the inside cause she's the love of yo life. That's how I feel about Solange." Y/N replied.

Y/N loves me. There are so many things going through my brain right now. I wish I would've known that forever ago. I never would've gotten married to someone else.

But damn, I've been waiting to hear that for so long. Not like this though but it's still so great to hear. Fuck I don't even know what to do.

"Well would you look at that. It's a fucking miracle. I always had a feeling she liked you." Bey said.

"Why you never told me that?" I asked.

"I didn't want to be wrong." She shrugged.

"Just tell her that you love her. At this point it's killing me. It's been twenty years." Jay said.

"Nigga it has not been twenty years. Why do you keep saying that?" Y/N chuckled.

Seriously though, has it really been that long? It don't even feel like it. Time do be flying like crazy. I got tired of standing out here and went back in the room.

"Took y'all long enough." Jay said.

"Shut yo impatient ass up." Bey snapped.

I gave Y/N the snacks she wanted and sat down next to her. My mind is still racing with the information I found out. I didn't even care about the movie anymore as it started to play.

"Come here. Why you so far away?" Y/N asked.

"I am right next to you." I say.

"Still not close enough." She said making me chuckle.

I scooted closer to her and she wrapped her arms around me. My heartbeat increased beating way faster than it should. Knowing what I now know I should probably say something.

A good thirty minutes into the movie and the married couple was already sleep. Told you they can't hang out long. They kinda old. Since they were sleep though it makes it easier for me.

"Y/N." I said.

"Yes Solo." She said looking down at me.

I lost all my words. I didn't know what to say anymore. Instead I just kissed her and to my surprise she kissed back, with no hesitation.  

Every last emotion that I felt for her over the years was poured into this moment. I'm in love with Y/N more than I thought I was.

A dangerous feeling yet it feels so right.

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Until Next Time.