When Aria was 16 she met what she thought would be the love if her life but one day he disappears without a trace and Aria is left heartbroken. Now at the ripe age of 23 she believes that its a sign from the universe that she isnt worthy of love. Bu...
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I lay in my bed staring at the ceiling. The room is silent except for the occasional voice of a cricket and the pitter patter of rain on my window.
The sky was now dark and the sun was probably going to rise in the next hour but I didn't give a fuck.
The only thing on my mind was that boy and is mentally insane father who's words left me confused.
I tried thinking about what that meant but I was stumped.
You're probably tired of hearing a certain someones name. Well not his name but the someone I call 'Him'.
He was what I thought would be my forever.
We met in highschool when we were 16. We started talking and became good friends but soon realized we both wanted something more with our relationship.
So we started dating and sneaking out to secretly go on dates no matter what time of day it was. It had to be a secret though since our parents would probably disapprove.
But one day he said he wanted the world to see us together and that he was tired of having to sneak out just so we didn't get in trouble.
He was always quite the optimist, I on the other hand was not. But I still had a hard time saying no so we made an agreement, we would tell our parents about our relationship and meet back here.
To my surprise my mom was overjoyed that I finally found someone I loved and my dad was simply just okay with it.
I went back to our rendezvous point and waited and waited for him to come.
He never did. Ever.
He didn't come back and I didn't see him ever again.
I became more pessimistic than ever and shut myself away from everyone including my parents.
I stayed in my room all day and almost had to retake junior year because I was failing all my classes.
How I made it into a good college is a mystery. But even when I tried to go on dates or hookup with random men at the bar, I couldn't get him out of my head.
So I crossed out the possibility of being in love or anyone loving me because in the end they'll all leave just like he did.
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I sit on my bed writing in my journal and trying to adjust to my new surroundings. It was my first night in this institute and not an ounce of sleep was in my system.
I was thinking about that lady fron earlier. She was breathtaking. Her hair looked soft to the touch and her lips looked so soft only a god should have the privilege of touching her.
Why was my father so mean to her? Does he know her?
I knew I wouldn't recognize her if I knew her which I doubt I did. I have memory loss, I don't remember what happened before the month I turned 23.
I've tried asking my father about it since he said my mother won't be apart of my life anymore. I know I should've been heartbroken but it's kind of hard when you don't remember anything about her.
My father always changes the subject when it comes to my memory loss and the tension in the room always makes itself known.
I just want to know who I am or rather who I was.
Was I in a relationship? What was I like back then?
Questions like these frustrate me since I can't have the answer to them.
I put away my journal and try to catch some sleep on this mildly uncomfortable bed. One thing is for sure I will get answers eventually.
𝙴𝚗𝚍 𝚘𝚏 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛
Heyyy so I thought y'all deserved and extra chapter so here you go ✨
Recently I've cut someone out of my life but its also kinda hard considering I told them everything but it was for the best so I'll get over it.
