My feelings

Everything is just dark

I see everything through a window behind the window everything is black and gray but outside the window everything is fine and colorful. I see everyone having fun while I sit in my dark room alone and feel bad. Don't know how to have fun again, isn't fun to do anything anymore just want to get away from reality and into another world. Can't handle feeling the way I feel locked in like everything is fine but behind that smile there is a great darkness. Everyone is so happy and I don't know how to handle everything, know that everything is not what it seems on the internet but still feel like no one understands me behind this smile.