The admirer's diary

chapter one: feelings first of their kind

Love, one of the best feelings to ever be felt by the heart but at what point exactly can the same love be deemed unacceptable, is it from the willingness to do anything for the one you love in order to make sure that they are protected and happy always...

It was in the middle of summer, 30 November 2015 to be exact and the time was around 3 in the afternoon which is the day I found my heart skipping a beat after a while of not doing that, the day I once again fell in love and all I can say was the feeling was worth savoring I mean it did feel like a once in a blue moon kind of feeling. I've tried the being in love thing multiple times before and always the feeling never stuck with me or made me like feel how I felt seeing you always I just lost interest

But you, the feeling you gave me stuck with me so much that I told myself that I would learn more about the person that made me feel this way, I wanted to learn you before I could commit plus I wanted to get close to you and try to see whether this feeling would eventually fade, stay the same or do the impossible and continue to grow

I managed to get close to you and after a whole month of observations I could happily say that the feeling never dimmed it only seemed to grow but unfortunately with that time the fear of being an unrequited love also started to grow

And I didn't know how you'd take the whole silently following you around for a month, how I saw you go on dates, catching up with friends, picking the right time to enter you house and bug it... but I mean with this much of love I had for you all the things I've done were justified because love triumphs all and anything done with it being the reason should be justified and after all that I believe I am finally ready to get acquainted

Its Saturday, you have plans today and  plans include me because thanks to a little harmless following around I was able to gather the information tharlt you are on a dating app and since I also know what you like and what you don't on a deeper level rather than what you write on your profile I was able to give myself a headstart among all the contenders who also run after the chance to make you theirs,Maddy

And finally the time has come, we are finally able to sit down and talk face to face. I am finally able to make you laugh and I am finally acknowledged by you that I really exist outside of social media and you can be sure I am delighted about the encounter