self control ~ rafe cameron

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Rafe left a while ago. It's 9:30. Sarah's going to be here soon. How the fuck am I meant to sleep in the same house as a murderer? Why have i not left yet?

I got up from the bed and sat at the window. I looked out at the wall. I was secretly hoping they'd come early. I just felt so anxious alone with Rafe. I heard someone knock on the door.

"Come in"
"It's Rafe."
"Hey Rafe."

I turned around to face him. He looked guilty.

"What's up now?"
"Nothing. I just wanted to see you."
"Why?"
"I just didn't see you for so long. I missed you. You were like one of my best friends too when you left. I just feel like I want to spend all my time with you while I still can. To make up for the time you were gone."
"What do you mean while you still can?"
"Well soon I'll get caught and I'll get put in jail. Shit i might even get death penalty."
"You won't Rafe"
"You seem so awkward around me now."
"I guess it's just weird to see you like this. I'm used to you being all tough and mean and angry all the time. Even around your friends."
"Well i guess I'll start being mean to you again then."
"What do you m-"

Rafe grabbed a pillow from the bed and started hitting me with it.

"You bitch!"

I ran at him with my own pillow and started attacking him.

"Okay okay stop time out!"

At this point he was on his back on the bed and id trapped him by sitting on him

"Hey can you guys be quiet... what the hell."
"Hey wheezie!"
"Am I interrupting something or?"
"Ye-"

I put my pillow on his face to stop him talking

"No wheezie I'm just beating your brother up with a pillow"
"Ivy i can't breathe"
"Rafe obviously you can breathe if you're talking"
"Okay I'm going. Ivy carry on"
"Bye wheezie!"

I took the pillow off his face

"Ok are we done?"
"No!"

He flipped me over onto my back and started hitting me with the pillow instead. He was leaning over the top of me. I kicked his leg and he fell forwards on top of me.

"Ow! Rafe!"
"That was you!"

I patted him on his back

"Get up you're crushing me"
"Nah I think I'll stay here"
"No Rafe! Move!"

I tried pushing him off me but be pinned my wrists to the bed.

"Rafe!"
"What!"
"Get off!"
"Make me!"
"Woah Woah Woah. Calm down sir."

He laughed and laid down on the bed next to me

"Ok done with the fighting now."
"No!!"

I got on top of him again and raised the pillow above my head.

"Prepare yourself Rafe!"

He didn't say anything. He put his arms around my waist and pulled me closer to him. Our faces were almost touching.

"Rafe-"

He sat up, i was still on him. He leaned forward and kissed me, i wrapped my arms around his neck. He had just started kissing down my neck when I heard my phone go off.

what if i just don't answer? What could go wrong? They could think I'm dead and come into the house. They could just leave. They could think they can't trust me anymore.

I hesitated before getting up.

"Rafe. What time is it"
"I don't know. I don't care"

I checked my phone 10:15

"Shit Rafe you need to go to your room."
"Why?"
"Sarahs coming."

Do I lie or do I tell him what she's really coming for?

"Why is Sarah coming?"
"She's going to show me where John B is so I can tell you. That's if he hasn't already gone somewhere else."
"You'll tell me if you find out?"
"Of course."

I gave him a quick kiss on the cheek before opening my window and texting Kiara.

'All clear. Windows Open. Hurry just heard Rafe say he's going out somewhere'

Of course I felt bad lying to both Rafe and the pogues. But it's not like i had a choice.

I heard a knock on the window and looked out. Sarah was at the bottom throwing rocks at the window. I opened it up and waved them in.

"Sarah. I thought the others were coming?"
"They are. They're on the way over now"
"How come they didn't come with you?"
"No idea. They said they wanted to talk to John B but i didn't want to so they dropped me off then went to him"
"Oh okay. So let's talk."

Rafes pov:

I stood outside of Ivy's room. I could barely hear what her and Sarah were saying. I knocked on the door.

"Ivy. Can I come in?"
"Yeah one second Rafe!"
"I'm coming in."
"Wait!"

I heard the closet close and things moving. Once it went quiet I walked in.

"I need to talk to you."
"Rafe not right now. I'm busy"
"Busy with what?"
"I'm just busy!"
"Well tough it's urgent."
"What is it?"
"You need to stay away from the pogues. For your safety. I know you're close with Sarah but you can't trust her."
"Rafe. Get out. Now!"
"Okay. Your choice. By the way Sarah I know you're in the closet."

Ivy pov:

Why the fuck would he come in when I told him not to!

"Rafe get out!"
"No! I don't trust her being here!"
"Well get used to it.
"No. This is my house. I decide if I want her here or not."
"It's her house too. She lives here"
"Not anymore. Now make her leave."
"You can't make me do anything."

He took a few steps forward towards me.

"You listen to me. Or you're out."
"Fine. I'm out."
"No wait."
"You said listen or get out. I'm leaving."

I started walking towards the closet to get Sarah out. I felt him grab my wrist and pull me to him.

"Get off of me!"
"No."

I pushed him away from me. He walked back over to me and slapped me across the face.

"Rafe what the hell!"
"Wait I'm sorry."
"You're sorry? I don't care! Don't fucking hit me ever again!"
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to! Please don't go."
"I'm leaving. I'm not dealing with this shit."

I tried to stop myself from crying as i pulled Sarah out of the closet.

"Tell them not to come. I'm leaving"
"Ivy no!"
"Fuck you Rafe!"

He tried to reach out to grab me again. I backed away.

"Don't you dare fucking touch me."

Me and Sarah walked out of the room and shut the door. I could hear Rafe shouting in the room and throwing things.

Sarah pulled me in for a hug and looked at the side of my face, Rafe had left a huge red mark on my cheek.

"Ivy? Are you okay?"
"I'm fine Sarah. Just done with this shit already. I've only been here a day."
"I know. You can come stay with me and the pogues."
"They'll hate me Sarah. Are you crazy?"
"Maybe a little"

She laughed as we walked out of the house.