Am I stupid or am I dumb pick a side
Is it death or should I just stay alive
Forget my family and my friends fuck this life
I'm trying to make it, I really am but I'm feeling tired
Suicide feels like such a fun ride
Should I cut my wrist?
Should I drink some pills?
I just really want to die
But I fear the pain I'll feel just before I go, so I just lay there and close my eyes
Just hoping the lord will take me to ease the mental pain and misery
Eyes open, an hour hasn't passed
I'm still alive
Oh well I guess it's not my time to die
Just push all that shit back and get back to real life
Be the shoulder to lean on
Be the listener
Act as though everything is fine
Be the poor communicator
Be the the insecure bitch
Be the bitch searching for validation
Be the pretender
Be the dreamer
Be the reader
Be the singer
Be the good Christian girl
Just be the confident bitch everyone thinks you are
Just be whomever they want to see at that moment to make it seem as though everything is fine.
Point to note
This is not how Im currently feeling now
I have never self harmed
Ps: I'm not a writer I write to vent
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