"Louis,I-I can't do this anymore."Eleanor said nervously. I was confused,she just came out of nowhere with this.
"What?"I ask.
"This. Us. I don't know what it is but I just lost feelings for you,I guess."she couldn't look me in the eyes. I looked at her blankly.
"So basically you're just making up excuses because you don't want to deal with all of my baggage."I said. I can tell by the way she's playing with her finger nails that she's looking for another excuse.
"No its not that. It's just I'm trying to go to college and be something. You are failing all of your classes Louis. And let's face it,we were going to break up when we graduation. We're going in two different directions."she said.
"Yeah whatever." I said and walked away. I walked to my locker and grabbed my math book. Math. Not one of my best subjects.
"Louis wait!"I heard Eleanor yelled.
"Wait for what?You already made yourself clear."I turned back around and made my way to class.
"For once you're early." Miss. Warnamont said. I just ignored her and went to my seat,opening my book to the page and writing random stuff.
The bell rang and everyone got there stuff together and left.
"Mr. Tomlinson,you know you're failing right?"she said. I huffed annoyingly.
"Nah!Really?I had no clue!"I said sarcastically,then I walked out. That was our last class so now school's out. I walked to my locker and threw everything inside of it into my book bag. I imagine I have some kind of home work to do. I walked out of the school and looked to my right and there I see Eleanor being all cuddly with Jason,the school's player. I walked over there,furious.
"So this is why you broke up with me. It had nothing to do with my grades or anything like that!"I yelled. She looked at me,stuned.
"Lou-"
"Save it. And when he breaks your heart,don't you dare come crying to me!"I said and walked away.
I walked home in total silence. I went up the stairs to my front door and heard my little sisters laughing. I walked inside and they all stop.
"What's wrong girls?"Mum asked them. Then she saw me.
"Oh."was all she said and walked back into the kitchen. I walked up stairs to my room and shut the door.
"Ugh."I said as I floped on the bed. I'm just so done! I can't do this anymore,I just don't want to go threw the pain anymore. Mum, Dad and my sisters couldn't give two shits about me. No friends. Failing every class. My girlfriend dumped me for the biggest prick in the school. I just can't do this anymore. I didn't even realize I was crying until I felt the tear drop from my face onto my hand. I wiped them away and got up,making my way to the bathroom. I looked in the mirror. What the hell am I?Why do I have to be such a fuck up?I'm done. Just done.
I opened every drawer in the bathroom. So far I found a couple of razors and a bottle of pain killers that a doctor gave my sister when she broke her leg. I take everything to my bed and laid them out in front of me.
I picked up the bottle of pills and opened it. I think this is it. No more hurting. No more pain. No more of anything. Just the silence. The peace. I poured a few or more - so a lot - in my hand and I brought it up to my mouth.
That's when I hear it..
"Stop!"
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