The New Girl

She walked into the room like no one I had ever seen before. She walked like she wasn't anyone special, but she carried her clothes in a way no one else could, and it made me fascinated. She sat down at an empty table, she didn't know anyone in here. But I was about to change that. How could anyone let a girl like that be all by herself? 

I could see her gazing around the room, looking for a friendly face. I tried to smile, but half my face failed to do what I wanted. I probably looked like a freak, but it didn't seem like she cared at all since she smiled back. I could feel my heart beating faster as a reaction to her beautiful face.

I sat by my table a little while and just tried to man up to talk to her. But she was gone before I got myself on my feet. I couldn't help but wonder what went on in her head. It seemed that she had a lot on her mind.

Days went by before I saw her again. I never saw her at school, so I knew something had to be wrong. But when I saw her again, I felt my heart jump inside me. She wore the same leather jacket I had seen her wear before and she had a 'Stone Roses' t-shirt on, so I knew she had great taste in music. This time I got to my feet before she could leave.

"Hi," I said with a crooked smile. She looked startled, but she looked up at me with bright eyes.

 "Hello," she said and flashed a smile. I had to smile back because the butterflies in my stomach were too much for me to handle.

"I like your shirt," I managed to say. She smiled at me and said, "Yeah? You've heard of the Stone Roses?"   

"My favorite song is 'I Wanna Be Adored', even though the lyrics are a bit repetitive." 

"Yeah, I know what you mean, but their sound is so good and not like anything else out there right now. And that's what I like."

He was so handsome. I had had my eyes on him ever since I first saw him when I was out for a walk from the hospital. I was really happy to get some time to myself, that the doctors trusted me enough to let me have one hour all to myself. They trusted me enough to know that I wouldn't hurt myself while I was gone.

But then I saw him, and I knew I had gotten myself in trouble. Even what I felt when I saw him hurt me. His adorable face and his fit body was too much for me to handle, which is why I left in a hurry. I couldn't look at him without crying and since he smiled at me it just made things worse. And seeing him today, hurt me even more. I just wanted to touch him. And the fact that he knew who my favorite band was impressed me, but it also made things even worse. It made him seem like a person I might like the company of.

"I'm sorry, but I have to go," I uttered. I walked away without saying anything to him. I was so nervous I felt my body shaking. And I also had this urge to push him up against the wall.

"Tix! You have no idea what happened today," I told Tix when I arrived at the hospital. "I went out, and I had one beer and there was this really fit guy sitting at a table across from mine."

"Really? How'd he look like?"

"Fit! Like, I wanted to cry just looking at him."

 "Oh, Rae... Maybe you get to see him again, you never know," she said. She trotted off to her room. I went to my room and wrote in my diary.

The next day, I woke up after having a dream about her. We were out for a beer and she was so lovely. She smiled at me like no one has ever done before. And that's when the dream ended.

I only knew her favorite band, but she'd made me feel something other than loneliness. I had to see her again.

I went to the pub and met Chop. He was his usual cheery self, and he was so hyped about the party he was going to in the weekend. But all I could think of was that girl I had met and if she wanted to come with me. I wasn't interested in anyone else. Since I saw her, everyone else seemed boring and normal. Something about her seemed exciting and new.