Dreams

Dinner

I was suddenly standing in the door way and Jesus with the 12 deciples was sitting at the rectangular table.  There was 14 chairs in total.  I remember Jesus standing up and saying come and eat with us Terra.  I looked at the table and saw only one chair open at the right hand side of Jesus.  I started to refuse saying I am not sitting there I am not good enough for it I made to many mistakes on my life please let me sit somewhere else.   He just smiled and said again come, sit down, eat with us.  I then tried to get one of the 12 deciples to move and each of them shook their heads no.  Jesus kept following me around and a few times he shook his head and smiled.  I circled the table so many times.  I finally gave up and sat down on the chair and Jesus sat right by me.  He then took the flat bread that was their and tore it into pieces for everyone there.  I took a bite of bread and started talking to the 12 deciples before my vision faded away into nothing.  I woke up smiling later on.  But why did I think I would win against Jesus himself in an argument over a chair?  Was a really silly dumb argument that I laugh and think that was embarrassing.  I don't know how Jesus or God puts up with me.  I know I made lots of mistakes in my life and that I'm broken as well.  There are lots of people who would be better at this than I am.  But at the same time I'm grateful that it was me that he choose to show these signs to.  It lets me know I'm not alone and that he is always here in the bad and the good things in life.  Like what he said he still my child.  To me that means be calm, don't worry,  I'm in control.   You are safe here no one can hurt you while I'm here.  Those 4 words and all the things I've seen especially the 6 year old one are one of my most valuable memories.  Jesus he is my king, and my father figure.  He is alive and he is coming back again someday soon.