Me, My Alpha and I (Discontinued)

Marcel's POV

O.k so guys the only reason I'm writing thus bit is because of @debbie_evanfurn who is a consistent reader and commented on the book so this chapter is dedicated to you seeing as you actually care xoxo

I hated this feeling. What was she doing to me. I was only meant to hold her captive until the stupid Alpha gave us the information. So why was I suddenly falling for her. I know you must think I'm the bad guy of course I'm the bad guy for fucks sake I would've raped her if it wasn't for my mother. I hated myself for hurting her and forcing her in to something that no woman should be forced into. She's too young. Way too young.

*Flashback

"Mummy, mummy what is it? Why are you crying?" I looked at my mother with hopeful eyes hoping that she would tell me what was wrong and not hide it away from me like she usually does.

She gave me a small smile.

"Oh honey its nothing its just y'know seeing you growing up so fast I just cant help but cry awwww baby you're gonna grow all big and tall and leave me.

I smiled at the thought of being older and running the pack then looked into my mothers sad eyes. She was lying to me. In didn't want to make her anymore upset. I hear a loud bang and daddy walked in with a belt in his hand.

He tugged at mummy's hair cussing under his breath as he slowly dragged her away.

"MUMMY!" I cried. With my arms out hoping she would pick me up and let us runaway from daddy.

"It's alright honey mummy and daddy just need........t........to..........ermm.......talk........,mhmm yeah we just need to talk.

She replied with tears in her eyes.

I was going to ask her why did daddy need to pull her hair to just 'talk' with her but they were already upstairs.

I couldn't hold it in anymore and curled up in a ball and cried. This was the last time I would ever cry. And that's a promise.

*End of Flashback

I looked away from the window tears threatened to fall from my face but I quickly pushed them back I mad a promise to myself and I would keep it.

Rome had been very boring and all I had been thinking about was Kaylan and how I could make it up to her. Flowers hmmm.... no to common. How about a necklace... because a ring would just send of the wrong message, and I've already sent off enough of those..

Tristan my Beta and Olivia's mate had been telling me to just express my feelings for her and that she would probably forgive me if I did that. He also told me to just treat her better but how could I. I had issues and demons that would prevent us from having a normal relationship and i could end up hurting her which would kill me inside. AAAAAAHHHHHH, why was I so unhelpable. I have waaaaaayyyyy to many problems and she would want to constantly help me and I'd end up telling her to go away and hurting her feelings.You know because she's like that always caring and motivating, she always help Ella when she asks for it even takes her to the toilet when she's too scared to go by herself and I saw her at Chelsea's bonding ceremony she was cheering like a mad person even though everyone stared at her she continued to cheer for her friend regardless what anyone said. She was raised very well and that's why I don't deserve her I would break her you know turn her evil she's too kind for me. The other day my mother was complaining about her back and she gave her a hour long back massage as well as a foot massage and some pampering.

"Snap out of it."

My wolf said. I need to think of something because were already on the plane and we'll arrive soon. If you guys want to know the only reason I did what I did is because one of my investigation wolves found out the killer of my mother is Kaylan's brother. I know it is wrong but I just snapped and did all the things my dad did to my mother to Kaylan which I know makes me no better but I loved my mother and I just thought I could sorta make him pay by hurting her which doesnt make any sense and oooohhh I hate myself.

Sorry I know it's short and boring but I just wanted to let my debbie_evanfurn know that I care about what she thinks and yeah I want her to understand and like my book o.k LOVE YOU GUYS BYEEE

-love Gladys