Thoughts About Life

Futures

I think at some point or another, all people think about the future. Recently, for me in any case, it's been about a future with someone. I can't wait to have someone that I can talk to openly, without fear of seeming, "weird" or, "crazy." Which I very well may be, but to be able to share all of that with someone sounds really amazing. I would love to be able to know that when I woke up, that person would be right next to me, excited to see me, too. I want to wait for this person to come home, anxiously awaiting them being near me again. I want to know that someone is looking out for me, wants what's best for me. I can't wait to have someone to fall back on with anything I may need.

Maybe that's a bit idealistic. Of course I know that there isn't always rainbows and puppies in a relationship, I have experience with that. It's just that it seems like in something made to last, the good will always end up outweighing the bad. Sure there will be bad days, where I don't want to talk with them, or days when I'm just so tired of something, but in those bad days, there will always be a light at the end of the tunnel. Something to look forward to, and something to wait for. The bad days will pass and then the happiness will come back.

I know by now that I love it when someone is sappy. The thing is though, it isn't just the big, sweet things that make the most difference. It's the small little glances, the compliments for no reason, the wanting to hold hands with me, that mean the most. I love the little things just as much as I love the big. I love it when someone will hold me close to them, want to be around me even when I'm not in the best mood. When they search for me in a crowd and when they see me, they smile. Maybe to some people that's to be expected, and I guess it's gotten that way a little bit for me, too. I just need to keep reminding myself that even if it happens a lot, it's still sweet and thoughtful and amazing.

As cliché as this, too, may be, I love it when I hear a song and it makes me think of what I call maybe eventually. That times in the future where something may happen that would end up being forever. Or as long as we both shall live. Either way, maybe eventually, I've found, is a great way of sugar-coating talking of the future with someone. Whenever I hear a song that makes me think of someone, I always listen a little more closely. I feel more connected with the song, and with that someone. I don't think it's only me that feels that way, I think it's part of human nature to want to connect with each other.

Anyway, just some thoughts. Not sure if anyone will read this or want to continue reading whatever random things pop into my head. I'm also not sure if I'll even end up posting this anywhere, though I may actually do what I keep telling myself that I will and start writing down my thoughts more. Maybe they'll end up wherever this does. I doubt that any others will be as sappy as this is, though.