Unrequited Execution

Was this ... how we were supposed to meet ?

how did we get here .... me on my knees with chains on hands and legs while she's putting the sword on my neck amost too deeply that i can see my soul about to leave , almost feels like she is a stranger to me , " why are you crying my love , its not like you're losing someone worthy of your love " , her tears driping down her face and onto the ground , " you don't know how much it hurts for me to be even seeing you right now , the vengence I craved for is here but , it almost feels too easy " , I smirk , her , vengence against me , its clear " you never loved me did you " she said with a whiper in her voice " I loved you more everyday but you were too blind to see , now its a different story " I always liked her stubborn exterior not being able to show her true intentions , " why don't you just say you love like you so obviously do " I said with the intention of catching her off guard , " I would have if i did love you , but I very much don't , try these tricks with someone else " , she said with utmost conviction , almost with honesty ... maybe she doesn't love me anymore , maybe I ... messed up . 

" Can't we go back to how we were " i say with my heart on my sleeve , and hope in my eyes , she looks at me with rage in her eyes dimming slowly , pull's my hair and says " how ... dare you ! " inching the sword closer to my hyoid ... she says with the most rageful whisper i have ever heard " how dare you try to mend things when its too late ... how dare you try to mend things when the origin of our drift is not fixed ... you look me in the eyes , ask this question when you didn't even bother to come back when you said you would " , i look into her eyes and i see , rage and sadness combined ... a deadly combination ... had i hurt her that bad , " It'd not too late , we can still mend our love story " , she says with tears in her eyes " our love story died years ago " , drops her sword as her knees fall weak and drop , looking at the ground while tears dripping down her face she says " you've done it again rhythus , LEAVE! leave like you always do " 

I stay , " I can't leave you " , she looks at me with these eyes that seek me , " you won't ? " she asks with the most desperation in her voice ... 

" I never left you and never will "  I say 

I think to myself , as she's weeping on my shoulders " this is what I missed while I was gone  "

and I said " did you miss me while i was gone " , she looks at me with confusion and her eyes soften up and she says " my heart ached for you everyday hoping you'd come back with your loving embrace and tell me you'll be there for me no matter how far you are . if that's what you call missing then yes , I did miss you " . 

I think about my actions while she's in my arm and it hurts to feel how she felt when I felt . I say with a heart of stone " did you know why I left you ? " , she looks at me with curiosity and says Rhye , you told me why you left me in the letter you wrote for me , I read it and , I burned the letter with the fire of fury burning in me . because it was unjustified , and hurted me deeply , scarring my soul may not have been the best way to redeem you " she chuckles and i smile , seeing her smile is ... Refreshing to say the least , damn I missed her , I say " I ... missed you " , she sits up and says " you still need to tell me why you left me " , she says with hurt and curiosity and I , hesitate , since its a long winded complicated and very emotionally wrenching , 

I start ,
" okay , 
when we were dating , I was falling in love with you deeply but the life we were living was , just survival , our little cottage in the woods was the thing keeping me alive and also not at par to a normal living conditions , it was a loving condition , but It was not on par to even survive so I was very stressed , everyday stress was taking a toll on my mental health , and It was very tough for me to looking at the optimistic traits of our relationship because i was getting pessimistic day by day , even sadistic , I was going crazy and at the tipping point of my life , with the abandonment issues I had gotten from my parents since they left me to be alone in the woods to be eaten by the wild animals because they find out I am a girl , it left in shambles and not ready for a relationship but I still went into relationships i had but never looked back on it , and hurt people along the way , and for that I deserve punishment , kill me , behead me for the hurt I caused but please hear my part of the story , and this doesn't mean that I loved you any less or for the matter of fact I loved everyone I dated but you were special , anyways , I left and took time to reconnect with nature and be who I wanted to be , take care of myself , and became witch , but I'd prefer Vigilante , becoming a witch made me a better person in the case of morality . so I was determined to find you , but the king caught me first and i'm so glad he did , cause he led me to you mi vida  , I finally have you all to me now , but I have a question , how did you get here ? " 

she turns to me while tears in here , I really hurt here didn't , she starts " I got here because of you , after you left , i was heartbroken , you knew that my previous partner didn't treat me right and you promised me " I'll treat you better than he ever did mi vida " but mon cheri  you hurt me more than he ever did " mon cheri  the most beautiful term of endearment anyone has ever given me , she continues " so when you left , I joined the kingdom's army , planned to leave when I got enough training and hunt you out . and I finally got you all to myself , I can do whatever I want to you and no one can do anything because this is an open field and you're mine mon cheri  " she kneels on one knee and tugs my hair ,that makes me feel goosebumps in my skin , inching closer to her , I say 

" I'm yours mi vida "