My Life Letter

Introduction

I belong to a family with 8 members, my mother, father, 2 sisters, 3 brothers and of course me, “the eldest.”

Being the eldest is not so good. Yes! You got all their attention, but they are just watching you because they wanted to observe and dictate you in every step of your life. Trying to make sure that you will not give any embarrassment with the FAMILY NAME that is like tattooed into your face. Everything you will do is in accordance to their plans. Your life is like written in a diary made by your parents (specifically my mother). You are full of DOs and DON’Ts. So many things to consider before making specific actions. You are too afraid to commit mistakes, your life is like full of regrets for yourself and happiness only for them. Always thinking of making them happy first before you. Life is so unfair, so as they are (parents)… Life is full of pain and rejections. Never even happy once (truly happy), Never even talk for once (about your situation). Would I stay like this FOREVER???