Bittersweet.

6

November 2018
-Jackie-

I woke up to the sound of rain tapping on my window.I've always loved rainy days a lot of people say rainy days are sad days but it's the opposite for me. Today was my day off and I didn't wanna stay inside so I got ready to go to the cafe near the apartment. I used to go often before Joselyn got here but I haven't gone in a while so I thought it was the perfect place to go during a rainy day like today.

I walked into the cafe and turned to see if the table I used to always sit at was open but it wasn't but there was a table next to it so I decided to order my coffee fast before someone beat me to the table. After ordering I quickly went to the table, the girl sitting at my usual table looked up as I went to sit down at the table next to her I quickly recognized who it was it was the girl that kept staring me down at the halloween party. I felt my face turn red but I smiled at her anyway maybe she didn't remember me and I was making it weird for no reason. I decide to ignore it and get my book out to read while I drank my coffee.

I read a few chapters of my book and put it down to finish my coffee so I could head home I scrolled through my phone when I suddenly heard her say

"Im sorry I can't sit here and not say anything I feel like im being rude. Do you remember me?"

"Yeah I do remember you" I say while letting out a little laugh

"I'm really sorry I wanted to apologize personally that night but I didn't wanna freak you out more"

"It's fine I promise my friend clarified how sorry you were what was your name again?"

"Oh it's Jessica and yours?"

"Jackie"

We started some small talk and oddly enough I didn't feel uncomfortable talking to her maybe it was the fact she was in daylight and was actually talking to me instead of just staring but I realized how pretty she was and how she wasn't creepy at all she was also great at making conversation I felt very comfortable and she was easy to talk to.I was kinda doing most of the talking but she didn't seem to mind I did ask her some things about herself but her answers were very short and she'd quickly change the topic to me.

The "small talk" ended up lasting about two hours I didn't even realize how fast time had passed until Joselyn called wondering where I was since we planned to go eat together I grabbed my things and said bye to Jessica as I got up from my seat she stopped me

"Wait"

"Yeah?"

"Would you mind giving me your number I really liked talking to you"

I smiled pretty sure I was blushing too

"Yeah of course I had fun too here let me write it down"

I wrote it on a napkin and said bye again. I couldn't stop smiling while walking out of the cafe I wanted to scream.

Deja vu

My love life here in Boston hasn't been great Ive dated one person and that was Keeho my coworker. We dated for about two months but it didn't work out we're on good terms and very good friends. Other than that I haven't had much luck. I can't get excited because I don't even know if Jessica likes me like that maybe she just wants to be friends? She did call me pretty though I guess I would have wait to find out.

I walk into the apartment still smiling from ear to ear

"Where have you been i'm starving" Joselyn says wining like a toddler

"Sorry I was at the cafe and got carried away while reading"

I'm not sure why i'm lying to Joselyn I know she would be happy about this but maybe she'd get too happy and make me get my hopes up and I don't think I should since I don't know Jessicas intentions

"No you're lying to me look at you you're smiling like crazy! tell me tell me tell me"

I knew I wasn't gonna be able to hide this from her I start smiling even more now that she caught me lying I give in and tell her i'll talk to her about it on the way to eat she gets really excited and hurry's me out the house

I tell her everything and how I felt the whole time I was talking to Jessica and she's so happy for me her eyes are glowing like she's a kid and I just told her im taking her to Disneyland she gets so excited and goes on about how this is good for me and how everything happens for a reason and how she knew I should've gone up to talk to her that halloween night I just laugh while taking bites of my food trying to hide my smile with every bite

I really was excited about it too and it's so weird cause I just met Jessica but those two hours made me feel a way I haven't felt in a while maybe this is good for me?

✭Hey guys it's been a while since the last update and I truly apologize I had some stuff going on mentally and got into a car crash with a airplane but i'm back and better and I plan to update more constantly thank you all for your patience. Next chapter is already up!