I remember once someone told me love is a beautiful thing but when I hear love it's not so beautiful because it reminds me of you. I can't listen to any of my favorite songs because of you. I can't be happy because every where I walk it reminds me of you. I loved you even when it hurt so bad. I had to leave before I broke myself completely. Everyone asked why I didn't leave sooner. Everyone asked me why would I deal with the pain but they don't know that when you love someone it's hard to leave even when you can see them hurting you to the point your crying on your bathroom floor wishing you were dead. But now I see that isn't love. Love is when someone would been back words to make sure your happy. They would make sure your okay. But I never felt that love with you. I had to learn you break your own heart by telling yourself to give it another shot when you already know its time to let go. But with you I didn't want to let go because I thought I needed you when I truly didn't. I need happiness not sadness all you brought was sadness. I was depressed and I still thought it was love but it wasn't. It was abuse. The way you never said I love you only when I said it. The way you never kissed me unless I kissed you or even you never cuddle unless I did it. So I stopped and you had the nerve to ask why I'm pushing you away. All you wanted was to play video games and fuck. All I wanted was affection I had to ask for that and you blamed it all on your past. So I left everyone saw me crying because of you but you still wonder why I was crying. Everyone tried to talk to me about leaving you but I never listened because I wanted to believe you would change but you never did. But I want you to know I had to step away not because I didn't care but because I did to much to let you treat me like I'm less then I'm worth. I'm never letting anyone ever do that to me again. With all the hurt you cause I still don't hate you. Even when I really want to. All I feel for you is love and I hate it because I tried but you didn't have the time to try. You started trying when I left the difference now is you trying isn't going to do shit because I'm gone for good
